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s, the Duchess said: "Listen to me. I haven't talked at all to you, let me say something now." Her companion reflected to himself: "Well, at all events, she's not going to malign the Duke; that's a foregone conclusion." The Duchess clasped her hands round her knee and raised her face to him. "Do you think," she asked, "that there's any egoist as nasty as a feminine one? Men are admitted to be generally selfish, but we specialize, and each one of us has the faculty of getting up some new and peculiar brand, I begin to believe. At any rate, when I married, I was an egoist, and I've stayed on being one until a very little time ago. I suppose I must in a way have more or less ornamented my position, as the papers say. I did have two children as well, and in that way fulfilled my duty as a Westboro'. But really and truly, I have never in the least been a wife, and very little of a mother. I was as silly and vain as could be, and I never for a moment valued my husband. I wasn't indifferent to my children, but I was absorbed by my worldly life, and when my little boys were taken ill and died, I was on a dahabeah on the Nile, and I don't think that Cecil ever forgave us for being so far away." She remained quiet for a long time, looking down at her hands, and when she lifted her face Bulstrode saw that she had wept. "That," she went on, "broke the ice round my heart, when I came home to those empty rooms." He said soothingly, "There, there, my child." "Oh, let me go on," she urged him, "let me speak. I shall probably never feel like doing so again. But at that time when I turned to find my husband, I discovered that I had no power over him, and I realized that for years I had not possessed his love. I suppose you'll tell me that it is unusual for a woman to see so clearly as this. Perhaps it is. At any rate, just because I did so clearly, I forgave him when he came to me last year, at Cannes." "You were wonderful!" he repeated again, "perfectly noble, and, as I said before, Westboro' did not deserve you." She did not here, as she had done before, catch him up; on the contrary, after a few moments, she asked him point-blank: "What then do you advise us, knowing us both, to do?" He was distinctly disappointed that she should have put the question to him, and gave her time to withdraw it as he asked tentatively: "You really feel that you must ask me, Duchess?" "Tell me, at all events." "Yo
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