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noticed, unnoticing. He was shut down by her. He rose to go out. He could not sit still any longer. He must get out of this oppressive, shut-down, woman-haunt. His wife lifted her head and looked at him. "Are you going out?" she asked. He looked down and met her eyes. They were darker than darkness, and gave deeper space. He felt himself retreating before her, defensive, whilst her eyes followed and tracked him own. "I was just going up to Cossethay," he said. She remained watching him. "Why do you go?" she said. His heart beat fast, and he sat down, slowly. "No reason particular," he said, beginning to fill his pipe again, mechanically. "Why do you go away so often?" she said. "But you don't want me," he replied. She was silent for a while. "You do not want to be with me any more," she said. It startled him. How did she know this truth? He thought it was his secret. "Yi," he said. "You want to find something else," she said. He did not answer. "Did he?" he asked himself. "You should not want so much attention," she said. "You are not a baby." "I'm not grumbling," he said. Yet he knew he was. "You think you have not enough," she said. "How enough?" "You think you have not enough in me. But how do you know me? What do you do to make me love you?" He was flabbergasted. "I never said I hadn't enough in you," he replied. "I didn't know you wanted making to love me. What do you want?" "You don't make it good between us any more, you are not interested. You do not make me want you." "And you don't make me want you, do you now?" There was a silence. They were such strangers. "Would you like to have another woman?" she asked. His eyes grew round, he did not know where he was. How could she, his own wife, say such a thing? But she sat there, small and foreign and separate. It dawned upon him she did not consider herself his wife, except in so far as they agreed. She did not feel she had married him. At any rate, she was willing to allow he might want another woman. A gap, a space opened before him. "No," he said slowly. "What other woman should I want?" "Like your brother," she said. He was silent for some time, ashamed also. "What of her?" he said. "I didn't like the woman." "Yes, you liked her," she answered persistently. He stared in wonder at his own wife as she told him his own heart so callously. And he was indignant. What right had she to
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