it was not my own voice, for it appeared so to me.
My speech seemed entirely under the control of the Spirit within me; I
do not mean that the words which I spoke were not my own, for they
were. I thought that I was influenced similar to the Apostles on the
day of Pentecost (with the exception of having power to give it to
others, and doing what they did). After breakfast I went round to
converse with my neighbors on religion, which I could not have been
hired to have done before this, and at their request I prayed with
them, though I had never prayed in public before.
"I now feel as if I had discharged my duty by telling the truth, and
hope by the blessing of God, it may do some good to all who shall read
it. He has fulfilled his promise in sending the Holy Spirit down into
our hearts, or mine at least, and I now defy all the Deists and
Atheists in the world to shake my faith in Christ."
So much for Mr. Bradley and his conversion, of the effect of which upon
his later life we gain no information. Now for a minuter survey of the
constituent elements of the conversion process.
If you open the chapter on Association, of any treatise on Psychology,
you will read that a man's ideas, aims, and objects form diverse
internal groups and systems, relatively independent of one another.
Each 'aim' which he follows awakens a certain specific kind of
interested excitement, and gathers a certain group of ideas together in
subordination to it as its associates; and if the aims and excitements
are distinct in kind, their groups of ideas may have little in common.
When one group is present and engrosses the interest, all the ideas
connected with other groups may be excluded from the mental field. The
President of the United States when, with paddle, gun, and fishing-rod,
he goes camping in the wilderness for a vacation, changes his system of
ideas from top to bottom. The presidential anxieties have lapsed into
the background entirely; the official habits are replaced by the habits
of a son of nature, and those who knew the man only as the strenuous
magistrate would not "know him for the same person" if they saw him as
the camper.
If now he should never go back, and never again suffer political
interests to gain dominion over him, he would be for practical intents
and purposes a permanently transformed being. Our ordinary alterations
of character, as we pass from one of our aims to another, are not
commonly called transfor
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