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ew trunk the lovely things which had been selected. And one day, thrilled but bewildered, she went into the studio, where Barres sat opening his mail, and confessed her fear that only lifelong devotion in his service could ever liquidate her overwhelming financial obligations to him. He had begun to laugh when she opened the subject: "Thessa is managing it," he said. "It looks like a lot of expense, but it isn't. Don't worry about it, Sweetness." "I _do_ worry----" "Now, what a ridiculous thing to do!" he interrupted. "It's merely advanced salary--your own money. I told you to blow it; I'm responsible. And I shall arrange it so you won't notice that you are repaying the loan. All I want you to do is to have a good time about it." "I am having a good time--when it doesn't scare me to spend so much for----" "Can't you trust Thessa and me?" The girl dropped to her knees beside his chair in a swift passion of gratitude: "Oh, I trust you--I do----" But she could not utter another word, and only pressed her face against his arm in the tense silence of emotions which were too powerful to express, too deep and keen to comprehend or to endure. And she sprang to her feet, flushed, confused, turning from him as he retained one hand and drew her back: "Dear child," he said, in his pleasant voice, "this is really a very little thing I do for you, compared to the help you have given me by hard, unremitting, uncomplaining physical labour and endurance. There is no harder work than holding a pose for painter or sculptor--nothing more cruelly fatiguing. Add to that your cheerfulness, your willingness, your quiet, loyal, unobtrusive companionship--and the freshness and inspiration and interest ever new which you always awake in me--tell me, Sweetness, are you really in my debt, or am I in yours?" "I am in yours. You made me." "You always say that. It's foolish. You made yourself, Dulcie. You are making yourself all the while. Why, good heavens!--if you hadn't had it in you, somehow, to ignore your surroundings--take the school opportunities offered you--close your eyes and ears to the sights and sounds and habits of what was supposed to be your home----" He checked himself, thinking of Soane, and his brogue, and his ignorance and his habits. "How the devil you escaped it all I can't understand," he muttered to himself. "Even when I first knew you, there was nothing resembling your--your father about you
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