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like to be of that disposition," she said. "But I'm afraid you are, whether you like it or not." Scarborough was half-serious, half in jest. "Are you the same person you were a month ago?" Pauline glanced away. "What do you mean?" she asked. "I mean in thought--in feeling." "Yes--and no," she replied presently, when she had recovered from the shock of his chance knock at the very door of her secret. "My coming here has made a sort of revolution in me already. I believe I've a more--more grown-up way of looking at things. And I've been getting into the habit of thinking--and--and acting--for myself." "That's a dangerous habit to form--in a hurry," said Scarborough. "One oughtn't to try to swim a wide river just after he's had his first lesson in swimming." Pauline, for no apparent reason, flushed crimson and gave him a nervous look--it almost seemed a look of fright. "But," he went on, "we were talking of the change in you. If you've changed so much in, thirty days, or, say, in sixty-seven days--you've been here that long, I believe--think of your whole life. The broader your mind and your life become, the less certain you'll be what sort of person to-morrow will find you. It seems to me--I know that, for myself, I'm determined to keep the future clear. I'll never tie myself to the past." "But there are some things one MUST anchor fast to." Pauline was looking as if Scarborough were trying to turn her adrift in an open boat on a lonely sea. "There are--friends. You wouldn't desert your friends, would you?" "I couldn't help it if they insisted on deserting me. I'd keep them if their way was mine. If it wasn't--they'd give me up." "But if you were--were--married?" Scarborough became intensely self-conscious. "Well--I don't know--that is----" He paused, went on: "I shouldn't marry until I was sure--her way and mine were the same." "The right sort of woman makes her husband's way hers," said she. "Does she? I don't know much about women. But it has always seemed to me that the kind of woman I'd admire would be one who had her own ideals and ideas of life--and that--if--if she liked me, it would be because we suited each other. You wouldn't want to be--like those princesses that are brought up without any beliefs of any sort so that they can accept the beliefs of the kingdom of the man they happen to marry?" Pauline laughed. "I couldn't, even if I wished," she said. "I
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