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ike a shell and he shook Madeline's hands with enthusiasm. "You're a trump," he said. "I shall not forget how good you have been to her; and I hope you two will always be friends." "I should think so! I should like to see your trying to prevent us, Dick," said Madeline saucily. "And your mother is going to love her, too, when--" "When we are married," Dick answered with silly masculine self-consciousness. "And that is to be soon!" "As soon as I can manage it. I can't bear to have Lena living as she does now; and there's no reason why we shouldn't cut it short." "No reason at all. I don't wonder you feel so. Good-by, both of you." Dick saw her to the door and Madeline walked out with her usual deliberate serenity. She found her way home with bottled-up emotions, as a hurt child holds in the cry until he gets to the spot where mother's breast waits for the inarticulate sobs. Everything she had done and said seemed to have been the act of some far-away self, that had hardly any connection with the real Madeline. The earth danced around her and she was incapable of real thought. And yet the well-trained, automatic body that was her outer shell conducted itself with reason. It even stopped in the living-room to kiss her mother; it apparently skimmed a new copy of _Life_; it convoyed her slowly up stairs to her own room, where it shut and locked her door. But here her real self resumed control, as she threw herself into an easy chair by the window and stared out at the desolation of December where dead leaves went whirling in elfin eddying clouds. For a few moments she let the solar system rock and reel around her, and watched everything she had thought stable go up in smoke. Then upon the world, swirling and pounding meaninglessly, there came an intense quiet. She knew that the outer world was as serene as ever; but a great throbbing pain within showed her that it was only her own little atom of self that was revolutionized. Nature was not upset. There was still order for her to hold fast to. For the first time she began to analyze herself and her emotions. She could not say that she had planned her future, but it had seemed so natural and inevitable that she had accepted it without planning, almost without thought. Dick and she had belonged to each other ever since they could remember. At ten they had been outspoken lovers, and ever since there had been that intimate comradeship that seemed to her to i
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