moment conceal aught from me; do no violence to yourselves for my sake.
I can support everything as long as I know all."
Her next wish was that we should all go out into the fields, for she
felt sure that Rothfuss would not be able to control Martella, who, she
feared, might run away and rush into suffering or death.
Richard said that he would be able to assist Rothfuss, and that he knew
the direction in which they had gone.
He hurried away to meet them.
"You had better go in and join them," we heard Richard say as he left
the house, and then he ran off on his errand.
A moment later, Annette joined us. Although usually quite courtly in
her manner, she was now diffident and timid, and in heartfelt tones
begged us to consider her as one of us, and permit her to assist in
bearing our affliction.
My wife extended her arms towards her, and for the first time embraced
and kissed Annette.
"I have brought smelling-salts and other restoratives," said Annette in
a cheerful tone, while the thick tears were running down her cheeks.
"But, dear Madame Gustava, you need nothing of that kind; you are as
firm as a forest-tree."
"Ernst will never again return to his forest," complained my wife.
Neither Bertha nor I were able to utter a word, but Annette said to my
wife, "You have a right to indulge in the deepest grief. I shall never
attempt to persuade you otherwise. I know how galling it is when
friends come and imagine that they can console us by smoothing over or
belittling our griefs. It is well, after all, that I am with you. It is
indeed true that I only feel your sorrows through sympathy, while the
blow itself has descended on your heads. With all my sincere sympathy,
there are hours when I can forget your sorrows, and am thus better able
to be of use to you."
My wife again took Annette's hand and pressed it to her own forehead.
"Do you believe," said my wife, addressing Annette; "do you believe
that Ernst sees his actions in their true colors?"
"I do not."
"I hope that it is so. Indeed, I really trust that my child does not
reason clearly on this subject. I would rather have him think himself
right in what he is doing; for he will then be able to endure his days,
and to sleep peacefully at night."
"How happy one is to watch the growth of bright, youthful memories in a
child's soul; but after such a deed, it were kindest to wish that he
might forget everything." And then turning towards me, she ad
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