u well," he said majestically.
Thinking of the drive and their last parting, Harz felt sorry and
ashamed. Suddenly Christian came into the room; she stood for a moment
looking at him; then sat down.
"Chris!" said Mr. Treffry reproachfully. She shook her head, and did not
move; mournful and intent, her eyes seemed full of secret knowledge.
Mr. Treffry spoke:
"I've no right to blame you, Mr. Harz, and Chris tells me you came to see
me first, which is what I would have expected of you; but you shouldn't
have come back."
"I came back, sir, because I found I was obliged. I must speak out."
"I ask nothing better," Mr. Treffry replied.
Harz looked again at Christian; but she made no sign, sitting with her
chin resting on her hands.
"I have come for her," he said; "I can make my living--enough for both of
us. But I can't wait."
"Why?"
Harz made no answer.
Mr. Treffry boomed out again: "Why? Isn't she worth waiting for? Isn't
she worth serving for?"
"I can't expect you to understand me," the painter said. "My art is my
life to me. Do you suppose that if it wasn't I should ever have left my
village; or gone through all that I've gone through, to get as far even
as I am? You tell me to wait. If my thoughts and my will aren't free,
how can I work? I shan't be worth my salt. You tell me to go back to
England--knowing she is here, amongst you who hate me, a thousand miles
away. I shall know that there's a death fight going on in her and
outside her against me--you think that I can go on working under these
conditions. Others may be able, I am not. That's the plain truth. If I
loved her less--"
There was a silence, then Mr. Treffry said:
"It isn't fair to come here and ask what you're asking. You don't know
what's in the future for you, you don't know that you can keep a wife. It
isn't pleasant, either, to think you can't hold up your head in your own
country."
Harz turned white.
"Ah! you bring that up again!" he broke out. "Seven years ago I was a
boy and starving; if you had been in my place you would have done what I
did. My country is as much to me as your country is to you. I've been an
exile seven years, I suppose I shall always be I've had punishment
enough; but if you think I am a rascal, I'll go and give myself up." He
turned on his heel.
"Stop! I beg your pardon! I never meant to hurt you. It isn't easy for
me to eat my words," Mr. Treffry said wistfully, "let tha
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