year he and his son had been alone together in the world, one
on each side--and Democracy just born!
And so, he had unearthed a grey top hat, borrowed a tiny bit of
light-blue ribbon from Irene, and gingerly, keeping cool, by car and
train and taxi, had reached Lord's Ground. There, beside her in a
lawn-coloured frock with narrow black edges, he had watched the game, and
felt the old thrill stir within him.
When Soames passed, the day was spoiled. Irene's face was distorted by
compression of the lips. No good to go on sitting here with Soames or
perhaps his daughter recurring in front of them, like decimals. And he
said:
"Well, dear, if you've had enough--let's go!"
That evening Jolyon felt exhausted. Not wanting her to see him thus, he
waited till she had begun to play, and stole off to the little study. He
opened the long window for air, and the door, that he might still hear
her music drifting in; and, settled in his father's old armchair, closed
his eyes, with his head against the worn brown leather. Like that
passage of the Cesar Franck Sonata--so had been his life with her, a
divine third movement. And now this business of Jon's--this bad
business! Drifted to the edge of consciousness, he hardly knew if it
were in sleep that he smelled the scent of a cigar, and seemed to see his
father in the blackness before his closed eyes. That shape formed, went,
and formed again; as if in the very chair where he himself was sitting,
he saw his father, black-coated, with. knees crossed, glasses balanced
between thumb and finger; saw the big white moustaches, and the deep eyes
looking up below a dome of forehead and seeming to search his own,
seeming to speak. "Are you facing it, Jo? It's for you to decide.
She's only a woman!" Ah! how well he knew his father in that phrase; how
all the Victorian Age came up with it! And his answer "No, I've funked
it--funked hurting her and Jon and myself. I've got a heart; I've funked
it." But the old eyes, so much older, so much younger than his own, kept
at it; "It's your wife, your son; your past. Tackle it, my boy!" Was it
a message from walking spirit; or but the instinct of his sire living on
within him? And again came that scent of cigar smoke-from the old
saturated leather. Well! he would tackle it, write to Jon, and put the
whole thing down in black and white! And suddenly he breathed with
difficulty, with a sense of suffocation, as if his heart were swolle
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