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f all how she used to feel towards her father. She had loved him, she knew, and her mother had loved him, ay, long after love became only memory. He had loved them, too, in his quiet way. Olive thought, with tender remembrance, of his kiss, on that early morning when, for the last time, he had left his home. And for her mother! Often, during Mrs. Rothesay's declining days, had she delighted to talk of the time when she was a young, happy wife, and of the dear love that Angus bore her. Something, too, she hinted of her own faults, which had once taken away that love, and something in Olive's own childish memory told her that this was true. But she repelled the thought, remembering that her father and mother were now together before God. At length with an effort she opened the letter. She started to see its date--the last night Captain Rothesay ever spent at home--the night, which of all others, she had striven to remember clearly, because they were all three so happy together, and he had been so kind, so loving, to her mother and to her. Thinking of him on this wise, with a most tender sadness, she began to read: "Olive Rothesay--My dear Child!--It may be many--many years--(I pray so, God knows!) before you open this letter. If so, think of me as I sit writing it now--or rather as I sat an hour ago--by your mother's side, with your arms round my neck. And, thus thinking of me, consider what a fierce struggle I must have had to write as I am going to do--to confess what I never would have confessed while I lived, or while your mother lived. I do it, because remorse is strong upon me; because I would fain that my Olive--the daughter who may comfort me, if I live--should, if I die, make atonement for her father's sins. Ay, sins. Think how I must be driven, thus to humble myself before my own child--to unfold to my pure daughter that--But I will tell the tale plainly, without any exculpation or reserve. "I was very young when I married Sybilla Hyde. God be my witness, I loved her then, and in my inmost heart I have loved her evermore. Remember, I say this--hear it as if I were speaking from my grave--Olive, _I did love your mother_. Would to Heaven she had loved me, or shown her love, only a little more! "Soon after our marriage I was parted from my wife for some years. You, a girl, ought not to know--and I pray may never know--the temptations of the world and of man's own nature. I knew both, and I withstood both. I
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