and
underestimation of the man in whose presence he sat. And it came over
him, not only the extent to which, formerly, he had regarded the bishop
as too tolerant and easygoing, but the fact that he had arrived here
today prepared to find in his superior anything but the attitude he was
showing. Considering the bishop's age, Hodder had been ready for a lack
of understanding of the step he had taken, even for querulous reproaches
and rebuke.
He had, therefore, to pull himself together, to adjust himself to the
unexpected greatness of soul with which he was being received before he
began to sketch the misgivings he had felt from the early days of his
rectorship of St. John's; the helplessness and failure which by degrees
had come over him. He related how it had become apparent to him that
by far the greater part of his rich and fashionable congregation
were Christians only in name, who kept their religion in a small and
impervious compartment where it did not interfere with their lives. He
pictured the yearning and perplexity of those who had come to him for
help, who could not accept the old explanations, and had gone away
empty; and he had not been able to make Christians of the poor who
attended the parish house. Finally, trusting in the bishop's discretion,
he spoke of the revelations he had unearthed in Dalton Street, and how
these had completely destroyed his confidence in the Christianity he had
preached, and how he had put his old faith to the test of unprejudiced
modern criticism, philosophy, and science...
The bishop listened intently, his head bent, his eyes on he rector.
"And you have come out--convinced?" he asked tremulously. "Yes, yes, I
see you have. It is enough."
He relapsed into thought, his wrinkled hand lying idly on the table.
"I need not tell you, my friend," he resumed at length, "that a great
deal of pressure has been brought to bear upon me in this matter, more
than I have ever before experienced. You have mortally offended, among
others, the most powerful layman in the diocese, Mr. Parr, who complains
that you have presumed to take him to task concerning his private
affairs."
"I told him," answered Holder, "that so long as he continued to live the
life he leads, I could not accept his contributions to St. John's."
"I am an old man," said the bishop, "and whatever usefulness I have had
is almost finished. But if I were young to-day, I should pray God for
the courage and insight you
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