ever he spoke to me in
his word, as sure as his Spirit witnesseth to my heart, he hath accepted
my sufferings. He said to me, Fear not, the outgate shall not be simply
matter of prayer, but matter of praise. I said to the Lord, If he should
slay me five thousand times five thousand I would trust in him, and I
speak it with much trembling, fearing I should not make my part good,
but as really as ever he spoke to me by his Spirit, he witnessed to my
heart that his grace should be sufficient." The Thursday night before
his death, being much grieved with the state of the public, he had this
expression, "Horror hath taken hold on me." And afterwards, falling on
his own condition, he said, "I renounce all that ever he made me will
and do, as defiled and imperfect, as coming from me; I betake myself to
Christ for sanctification as well as justification:"--Repeating these
words, "_He is made of God to me wisdom, righteousness_, &c."--adding,
"I close with it, let him be so, he is my all in all."

March 17th, three gentlewomen came to see him, and after exhorting them
to read the word, and be much in prayer, and much in communion with God,
he said, "My honourable Master and lovely Lord, my great royal King hath
not a match in heaven nor in earth. I have my own guilt even like other
sinful men, but he hath pardoned, loved, washed, and given me joy
unspeakable and full of glory. I repent not that ever I owned his cause.
These whom ye call protestors, are the witnesses of Jesus Christ. I hope
never to depart from that cause nor side with those that have burnt the
causes of God's wrath. They have broken their covenant oftener than once
or twice, but I believe _the Lord will build Zion, and repair the waste
places of Jacob_. Oh! to obtain mercy to wrestle with God for their
salvation. As for this presbytery, it hath stood in opposition to me
these years past. I have my record in heaven I had no particular end in
view, but was seeking the honour of God, the thriving of the gospel in
this place, and the good of the new college, that society which I have
left upon the Lord. What personal wrongs they have done me, and what
grief they have occasioned to me, I heartily forgive them, and desire
mercy to wrestle with God for mercy to them, and for the salvation of
them all."

The same day Messrs. James M'Gil, John Wardlaw, William Vilant, and
Alexander Wedderburne, all members of the same presbytery with him,
coming to visit him, he made t