ndered her feeble, exhausted, and depressed.
'I shall go and see her,' said Dr. May; 'I like my patients best in
that mood.'
Nor would the Doctor let his restless, anxious son do more than make
the introduction, but despatched him to the Hospital; whence returning
to find himself still excluded, he could endure nothing but pacing up
and down the lawn in sight of his father's head in the window, and
seeking as usual Ethel's sympathy.
There was some truth in what Charles Cheviot had said. Wedlock did
enhance the grief and loss, and Tom found the privilege of these months
of tendance more heart-wringing than he had anticipated, though of
course more precious and inestimable. Moreover, Averil's depression
had been a phase of her illness which had not before revealed itself in
such a degree.
'Generally,' he said, 'she has talked as if what she looks to were all
such pure hope and joy, that though it broke one's heart to hear it,
one saw it made her happy, and could stand it. Fancy, Ethel, not an
hour after we were married, I found her trying the ring on this finger,
and saying I should be able to wear it like my father! It seemed as if
she would regret nothing but my sorrow, and that my keeping it out of
sight was all that was needful to her happiness. But to-day she has
been blaming herself for--for grieving to leave all so soon, just as
her happiness might have been beginning! Think, Ethel! Reproaching
herself for unthankfulness even to tears! It might have been more for
her peace to have remained with her where she had no revival of these
associations, if they are only pain to her.'
'Oh no, no, Tom. It only proves the pleasure they do give her. You
know, better than I do, that there must be ups and downs, failures of
spirits from fatigue when the will is peaceful and resigned.'
'I know it. I know it with my understanding, Ethel, but as to
reasoning about her as if she was anybody else, the thing is mere
mockery. What can my father be about?' he added, for the twentieth
time. 'Talking to her in the morning always knocks her up. If he had
only let me warn him; but he hurried me off in his inconsiderate way.'
At last, however, the head disappeared, and Tom rushed indoors.
'So, Tom, you have made shorter work of twenty-five patients than I of
one.'
'I'll go again,' said poor Tom, in the desperation of resolute
meekness, 'only let me see how she is.'
'Let Ethel go up now. She is very cheery
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