FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76  
77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   >>   >|  
nger of the sin of idolatry?" she at length succeeded in saying. "No, I am in danger of narrowing my sympathies--of losing a broad and safe hold of life--of losing my proper stake in society--of--in short, of becoming as useless to my fellows as my poor, poor father, and of making an end as miserable. Oh! Anna, could you have witnessed the hopelessness of that death-bed, you could never wish me a fate like his!" My pen is unequal to convey an adequate idea of the expression with which Anna regarded me. Wonder, doubt, apprehension, affection, and anguish were all beaming in her eyes; but the unnatural brightness of these conflicting sentiments was tempered by a softness that resembled the pearly lustre of an Italian sky. "If I yield to my fondness, Anna, in what will my condition differ from that of my miserable father's? He concentrated his feelings in the love of money, and I--yes, I feel it here, I know it is here--I should love you so intensely as to shut out every generous sentiment in favor of others. I have a fearful responsibility on my shoulders--wealth, gold; gold beyond limits; and to save my very soul I must extend not narrow my interest in my fellow-creatures. Were there a hundred such Annas I might press you all to my heart--but, one!--no--no--'twould be misery--'twould be perdition! The very excess of such a passion would render me a heartless miser, unworthy of the confidence of my fellow-men!" The radiant and yet serene eyes of Anna seemed to read my soul; and when I had done speaking she arose, stole timidly to my side of the table, as woman approaches when she feels most, placed her velvet-like hand on my burning forehead, pressed its throbbing pulses gently to her heart, burst into tears, and fled. We dined alone, nor did we meet again until the dinner hour. The manner of Anna was soothing, gentle, even affectionate; but she carefully avoided the subject of the morning. As for myself, I was constantly brooding over the danger of concentrating interests, and of the excellence of the social-stake system. "Your spirits will be better, Jack, in a day or two," said Anna, when we had taken wine after the soup. "Country air and old friends will restore your freshness and color." "If there were a thousand Annas I could be happy as man was never happy before! But I must not, dare not, lessen my hold on society." "All of which proves my insufficiency to render you happy. But here comes Francis w
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76  
77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
danger
 

fellow

 

render

 
society
 

father

 

losing

 

twould

 

miserable

 
approaches
 
velvet

throbbing

 

gently

 

pulses

 

burning

 

forehead

 

pressed

 

speaking

 

Francis

 

radiant

 
serene

confidence
 

heartless

 
unworthy
 

timidly

 

insufficiency

 

proves

 

dinner

 
spirits
 
excellence
 

interests


social
 

system

 

friends

 

restore

 

thousand

 

Country

 

concentrating

 

freshness

 

manner

 

soothing


lessen

 

gentle

 

constantly

 
brooding
 

morning

 

subject

 

affectionate

 

carefully

 

avoided

 

limits