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t anybody might think as long as Athalie already knew and detested what he had done. There was a garage in the neighbouring village. He spent most of his time hanging around it. Sometimes he came home reeking of oil and gasoline, sometimes his breath was tainted with tobacco and alcohol. He was so much bigger and older than Athalie that the child had never entirely lost her awe of him. His weakness of character, his failings, and the fact that he was a trifle afraid of her opinion, combined to astonish and bewilder her. For a long while she tried to understand the gradual but certain reversal of their relations. And one night, still more or less in awe of him, she got out of bed and went softly into his room. He was not asleep. The sudden apparition of his youngest sister considerably startled him, and he sat up in his ragged night-shirt and stared at her where she stood in the moonlight. "You look like one of your own spooks!" he said. "What's the matter with you?" "I wanted to talk with you, Jack." "What about?" "You." For a moment he sat there eyeing her uneasily; then: "Well, go ahead!" he said ungraciously; and stretched himself back on the pillows. She came and seated herself on the bed's edge: "Jack, please don't drink beer." "Why not? Aw, what do you know about men, anyway? Don't they all smoke and drink?" "Mamma asked you not to." "Gee-whiz! I was a kid then. But a man isn't a baby." Athalie sighed. Her brother eyed her restlessly, aware of that slight feeling of shame which always invaded his sullen, defiant discontent when he knew that he had lowered himself in her estimation. For, if the boy was a little afraid of her, he also cared more for her than he ever had for any of the family except his mother. He was only the average boy, stumbling blindly, almost savagely through the maze of adolescence, with no guide, nobody to warn or counsel him, nothing to stimulate his pride, no anchorage, no experience. Whatever character he had he had been born with: it was environment and circumstance that were crippling it. "See here, Athalie," he said, "you're a little girl and you don't understand. There isn't any harm in my smoking a cigarette or two or in drinking a glass of beer now and then." "Isn't there, Jack?" "No. So don't you worry, Sis.... And, say! I'm not going back to school." "What?" "What's the use? I can't go to college. Anyway what's the good of
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