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e'll come, too. Whatever else is contained in Mr. Neville I don't know; but I like him separately and compositely, and I'm happy when I'm with him." With which healthy conclusion she asked if she might rest, and came around to look at the canvas. As she had stood in silence for some time, he asked her, a little nervously, what she thought of it. "Louis--I don't know." "Is your opinion unfavourable?" "N-no. I _am_ like that, am I not?" "In a shadowy way. It _will_ be like you." "Am I as--interesting?" "More so," he said. "Are you going to make me--beautiful?" "Yes--or cut this canvas into shreds." "Oh-h!" she exclaimed with a soft intake of breath; "would you have the heart to destroy me after you've made me?" "I don't know what I'd do, Valerie. I never felt just this way about anything. If I can't paint you--a human, breathing _you_--with all of you there on the canvas--_all_ of you, soul, mind, and body--all of your beauty, your youth, your sadness, happiness--your errors, your nobility--_you_, Valerie!--then there's no telling what I'll do." She said nothing. Presently she resumed the pose and he his painting. It became very still in the sunny studio. CHAPTER IV In that month of June, for the first time in his deliberately active career, Neville experienced a disinclination to paint. And when he realised that it was disinclination, it appalled him. Something--he didn't understand what--had suddenly left him satiated--and with all the uneasiness and discontent of satiation he forced matters until he could force no further. He had commissions, several, and valuable; and let them lie. For the first time in all his life the blank canvas of an unexecuted commission left him untempted, unresponsive, weary. He had, also, his portrait of Valerie to continue. He continued it mentally, at intervals; but for several days, now, he had not laid a brush to it. "It's funny," he said to Querida, going out on the train to his sister's country home one delicious morning--"it's confoundedly odd that I should turn lazy in my old age. Do you think I'm worked out?" He gulped down a sudden throb of fear smilingly. "Lie fallow," said Querida, gently. "No soil is deep enough to yield without rest." "Yours does." "Oh, for me," said Querida, showing his snowy teeth, "I often sicken of my fat sunlight, frying everything to an iridescent omelette." He shrugged, laughed: "I turn lazy for
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