FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166  
167   168   169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   >>  
eople must think me!' 'Does it matter very much what people think?' he said gravely. 'I'm so ashamed of myself. I try to put the thoughts out of my head, but I can't. I simply can't. I've tried to be brave. I've refused to discuss the possibility of there being anything in those horrible charges. I wanted to talk to Dick--I knew he was fond of you--but I didn't dare. It seemed treacherous to you, and I wouldn't let anyone see that it meant anything to me. The first letter wasn't so bad, but the second--oh, it looks so dreadfully true.' Alec gave her a rapid glance. This was the first he had heard of another communication to the paper. During the frenzied anxiety of those days at the colliery, he had had time to attend to nothing but the pressing work of rescue. But he made no reply. 'I've read it over and over again, and I _can't_ understand. When Bobbie says it's conclusive, I tell him it means nothing--but--don't you see what I mean? The uncertainty is more than I can bear.' She stopped suddenly, and now she looked at him. There was a pitiful appeal in her eyes. 'At the first moment I felt so absolutely sure of you.' 'And now you don't?' he asked quietly. She cast down her eyes once more, and a sob caught her breath. 'I trust you just as much as ever. I know it's impossible that you should have done a shameful deed. But there it stands in black and white, and you have nothing to say in answer.' 'I know it's very difficult. That's why I asked you to believe in me.' 'I do, Alec,' she cried vehemently. 'With all my soul. But have mercy on me. I'm not as strong as I thought. It's easy for you to stand alone. You're iron. You're a mountain of granite. But I'm a weak woman, pitifully weak.' He shook his head. 'Oh, no, you're not like other women.' 'It was easy to be brave where my father was concerned, or George, but now it's so different. Love has changed me. I haven't the courage any more to withstand the opinion of all my fellows.' Alec got up and walked once or twice across the room. He seemed to be thinking deeply. Lucy fancied that he must hear the beating of her heart. He stopped in front of her. Her heart was wrung by the great pain that was in his voice. 'Don't you remember that only a few days ago I told you that I'd done nothing which I wouldn't do again? I gave you my word of honour that I could reproach myself for nothing.' 'Oh, I know,' she cried. 'I'm so utterly ashamed o
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166  
167   168   169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   >>  



Top keywords:
ashamed
 

stopped

 

wouldn

 
granite
 

mountain

 

answer

 

difficult

 

stands

 

shameful

 

pitifully


strong

 
utterly
 

reproach

 
vehemently
 
thought
 

fancied

 

deeply

 

thinking

 

beating

 

remember


walked

 

father

 

concerned

 

George

 

honour

 
opinion
 

fellows

 

withstand

 

changed

 

courage


letter

 

treacherous

 
communication
 

glance

 

dreadfully

 

thoughts

 

gravely

 

matter

 

people

 

simply


charges
 
wanted
 

horrible

 

refused

 

discuss

 
possibility
 

During

 
frenzied
 
moment
 

absolutely