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dale's imagination. He tried to recall the lines, but only the theme was clear. It was the everlasting Song of To-morrow, always the one tune set to changing ideals. It was the same idea as the philosophy about each man's "interpretation" of the story already written, which Conning had reflected upon so often. At this time Truedale believed he firmly accepted the principle of foreordination, or whatever one chose to call it. One followed the path upon which one's feet had been set. One might linger and wander, within certain limits, but always each must return to his destined trail! A distant church clock struck one; the house was still at last--deathly still. Two sounded, but Truedale thought on. He finally succeeded in eliminating the entangling circumstances that seemed to lie like a twisted skein in the years stretching between his going forth from his uncle's house to this night of return. He tried to understand himself, to estimate the man he was. In no egotistical sense did he do this, but sternly, deliberately, because he felt that the future demanded it. He must account to others, but first he must account to himself. He recalled his boyhood days when his uncle's distrust and apparent dislike of him had driven him upon himself, almost taking self-respect with it. He re-lived the barren years when, longing for love and companionship, he found solace in a cold pride that carried him along through school and into college, with a reputation for hard, unyielding work, and unsocial habits. How desperately lonely he had been--how cruelly underestimated--but he had made no outcry. He had lived his years uncomplainingly--not even voicing his successes and achievements. Through long practise in self-restraint, his strength lay in deliberate calculation--not indifferent action. He hid, from all but the Kendalls, his private ambitions and hopes. He studied in order that he might shake himself free from his uncle's hold upon him. He meant to pay every cent he had borrowed--to secure, by some position that would supply the bare necessities of life, time and opportunity for developing the talent he secretly believed was his. He was prepared, once loose from obligation to old William Truedale, to starve and prove his faith. And then--his breakdown had come! Cast adrift by loss of health, among surroundings that appealed to all that was most dangerous in his nature--believing that his former ambitions were defea
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