My heart was healed within me, I was bless'd.
And looked, and looked ... 1802.

My heart was hushed within me, ... 1815.

As quiet all within me, ... 1827.]

[Variant 39:

1800.

Where looks inhuman dwelt on festering heaps! 1798.]

[Variant 40: The following stanza appeared only in the editions
1798-1805:

Yet does that burst of woe congeal my frame,
When the dark streets appeared to heave and gape,
While like a sea the storming army came,
And Fire from Hell reared his gigantic shape,
And Murder, by the ghastly gleam, and Rape
Seized their joint prey, the mother and the child!
But from these crazing thoughts my brain, escape!
--For weeks the balmy air breathed soft and mild,
And on the gliding vessel Heaven and Ocean smiled. 1798.

At midnight once the storming Army came,
Yet do I see the miserable sight,
The Bayonet, the Soldier, and the Flame
That followed us and faced us in our flight:
When Rape and Murder by the ghastly light
Seized their joint prey, the Mother and the Child!
But I must leave these thoughts.--From night to night,
From day to day, the air breathed soft and mild;
And on the gliding vessel Heaven and Ocean smiled. 1802-5.]

[Variant 41:

1802.

And oft, robb'd of my perfect mind, I thought
At last my feet a resting-place had found:
Here will I weep in peace, (so fancy wrought,) 1798.]

[Variant 42:

1842.

Here watch, of every human friend disowned,
All day, my ready tomb the ocean-flood-- 1798.

Here will I live:--of every friend disown'd,
Here will I roam about the ocean flood.-- 1802.

And end my days upon the ocean flood."-- 1815.]

[Variant 43:

1842.

By grief enfeebled was I turned adrift,
Helpless as sailor cast on desart rock; 1798.

Helpless as sailor cast on some bare rock; 1836.]

[Variant 44:

1842.

Nor dared ... 1798.]

[Variant 45:

1802.

How dismal ... 1798.]

[Variant 46:

1832.

... frame ... 1798.]

[Variant 47:

1836.

So passed another day, and so the third:
Then did I try, in vain, the crowd's resort, 1798.]

[Variant 48:

1827.

Dizzy my brain, with interruption short 1798.

And I had many interruptions short 1802.]

[Variant 49:

1802.

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