e opened his eyes and saw altogether near him the large, dark, uncanny
eyes of the woman, who seemed to him now an entire stranger.
"What are you looking at, Jennie?" he asked quietly. "What are you
thinking of?"
"My dear little boy! ...They call you Kolya: isn't that so?"
"Yes."
"Don't be angry at me, carry out a certain caprice of mine, please:
shut your eyes again... no, even tighter, tighter... I want to turn up
the light and have a good look at you. There now, so... If you only
knew how beautiful you are now... right now... this second. Later you
will become coarse, and you will begin giving off a goatish smell; but
now you give off an odour of fur and milk... and a little of some wild
flower. But shut them--shut your eyes!"
She added light, returned to her place, and sat down in her favourite
pose--Turkish fashion. Both kept silent. In the distance, several rooms
away, a broken-down grand piano was tinkling; somebody's vibrating
laughter floated in; while from the other side--a little song, and
rapid, merry talking. The words could not be heard. A cabby was
rumbling by somewhere through the distant street...
"And now I will infect him right away, just like all the others,"
pondered Jennka, gliding with a deep gaze over his well-made legs, his
handsome torso of a future athlete, and over his arms, thrown back,
upon which, above the bend of the elbow, the muscles tautened--bulging,
firm. "Why, then, am I so sorry for him? Or is it because he is such a
good-looking little fellow? No. I am long since a stranger to such
feelings. Or is it because he is a boy? Why, only a little over a year
ago I shoved apples in his pocket, when he was going away from me at
night. Why have I not told him then that which, I can, and dare, tell
him now? Or would he not have believed me, anyway? Would have grown
angry? Would have gone to another? For sooner or later this turn awaits
every man... And that he bought me for money--can that be forgiven? Or
did he act just as all of them do--blindly? ..."
"Kolya!" she said quietly, "Open your eyes."
He obeyed, opened his eyes, turned to her; entwined her neck with his
arm, drew her a little to him, and wanted to kiss her in the opening of
her chemise--on the breast. She again tenderly but commandingly
repulsed him.
"No, wait a while, wait a while--hear me out... one little minute more.
Tell me, boy, why do you come here to us--to the women?"
Kolya quietly and hoarsely beg
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