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rimmed over and fell on her friend's hand. Vanna brushed it away with impatient fingers, straightened her back, and flung back her head. "Oh, don't cry--don't cry over me, Jean. We are poor things, we women, if we can't face the prospect of making our own lives. Put a man into my place. Would he pine? You know very well he would do nothing of the kind. A man never wants to marry until he meets the right woman, and even then he struggles before he succumbs. When he once loves it is different--he is all fire and impatience, but until that hour arrives he enjoys his liberty, pities the poor fellows who are handicapped with a wife and family, and privately determines to keep clear. Here am I-- twenty-three, comfortably off, strong, intelligent, fancy-free. Why can't I take a leaf out of his book and be content and happy? Why need I consider myself a martyr because I must live alone, rather than as the wife of some man unknown, who perhaps in even the ordinary course of events might have persistently evaded my path, or had the bad taste to prefer another woman when he _was_ found? It is not as if I were already in love." Jean drew her brows together in wistful inquiry. The doubt in her mind was so transparently expressed that Vanna referred to it as to a spoken question. "I know what you are thinking. Edward Verney! You think my regrets hover round him. It's not true, Jean, it's not true. I had forgotten his very existence until I saw your face. If I had cared, surely my thoughts would have flown to him first of all. He is only a `might-have-been.' I had reached the length of noticing the way his hair grows on his forehead, and his nice, close ears--that was a danger-signal, I suppose; and I acknowledge that I have dressed with an eye to his taste, but it has gone no deeper. I shall be sorry, but it won't _hurt_ to end our friendship." "Then why need you--" "Oh!" Vanna laughed lightly. "I think he admires my--ears also! If we saw more of each other we should grow nearer; I realise that, therefore we must separate with all speed. As things are, he won't suffer any more than I. He is just a dear, simple, unimaginative Englishman, who needs to have things pushed very conspicuously before his eyes before he can see them. He knows that I have gone away for a long change after the strain of Aunt Mary's illness. It will be some months before it dawns upon him that my holiday is exceeding its
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