isk of
compromising herself, and of passing as his mistress, if any one had
attacked him in her presence, and sometimes she used to say with a
sudden laughing sadness in her voice:
"If I were really capable of loving for five minutes consecutively, I
should love you."
And when they were walking in the _Bois de Boulogne_, while the Victoria
was waiting near Armenonville, during their afternoon talks when, as he
used to say, they were hanging over the abyss until they both grew
giddy, and spoke of love madly and ceaselessly--returning to the subject
constantly, and impregnating themselves with it--Madame d'Ormonde would
occasionally produce one of her favorite theories. Yes, she certainly
understood possession of the beloved object, that touch of madness which
seizes you from head to foot, which makes your blood hot, and which
makes you forget everything else in a man's embraces, in that supreme
pleasure which overwhelms you, and which rivets two beings together for
ever, by the heart and by the brain. But only at some unexpected moment,
in a strange place, with a touch of something novel about it, which one
would remember all one's life, something amusing and almost maddening,
which one had been in search of for a long time, and which imparted a
flavor of curry, as it were, into the common-place flavor of immorality.
And Xavier de Fontrailles did all he could to discover such a place, but
failed successively in a bachelor's lodgings with silk tapestry, like a
boudoir of the seventeenth century, in a villa hidden like a nest among
trees and rose bushes, with a Japanese house furnished in an
extraordinary fashion and very expensively, with latticed windows from
which one could see the sea, in an old melancholy palace, from which one
could see the Grand Canal, in rooms, in hotels, in queer quarters, in
private rooms, in restaurants, and in small country houses in the
recesses of woods.
Madame d'Ormonde went on her way without turning her head, but Xavier,
alas! became more and more amorous, as amorous as an overgrown schoolboy
who has never hitherto had any conversation with a woman, and who is
amorous enough to pick up the flowers that fall from her bodice, and to
be lost and unhappy as soon as he does not see her, or hear her soft,
cooing voice, and see her smile....
One evening, however, he had gone with her to the fair at Saint Cloud,
and went into three shows, deafened by the noise of the organs, the
whistli
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