t with more convenience than
there.
8th (Lord's day). Up, and at my chamber all the morning, setting papers
to rights, with my boy; and so to dinner at noon. The girle with us, but
my wife troubled thereat to see her, and do tell me so, which troubles
me, for I love the girle. At my chamber again to work all the afternoon
till night, when Pelling comes, who wonders to find my wife so dull and
melancholy, but God knows she hath too much cause. However, as pleasant
as we can, we supped together, and so made the boy read to me, the poor
girle not appearing at supper, but hid herself in her chamber. So that I
could wish in that respect that she was out of the house, for our peace
is broke to all of us while she is here, and so to bed, where my wife
mighty unquiet all night, so as my bed is become burdensome to me.
9th. Up, and I did by a little note which I flung to Deb. advise her
that I did continue to deny that ever I kissed her, and so she might
govern herself. The truth is that I did adventure upon God's pardoning
me this lie, knowing how heavy a thing it would be for me to the ruin of
the poor girle, and next knowing that if my wife should know all it were
impossible ever for her to be at peace with me again, and so our whole
lives would be uncomfortable. The girl read, and as I bid her returned
me the note, flinging it to me in passing by. And so I abroad by [coach]
to White Hall, and there to the Duke of York to wait on him, who told me
that Sir W. Pen had been with him this morning, to ask whether it would
be fit for him to sit at the Office now, because of his resolution to
be gone, and to become concerned in the Victualling. The Duke of
York answered, "Yes, till his contract was signed:" Thence I to Lord
Sandwich's, and there to see him; but was made to stay so long, as his
best friends are, and when I come to him so little pleasure, his head
being full of his own business, I think, that I have no pleasure [to]
go to him. Thence to White Hall with him, to the Committee of Tangier;
a day appointed for him to give an account of Tangier, and what he did,
and found there, which, though he had admirable matter for it, and his
doings there were good, and would have afforded a noble account, yet he
did it with a mind so low and mean, and delivered in so poor a manner,
that it appeared nothing at all, nor any body seemed to value it;
whereas, he might have shewn himself to have merited extraordinary
thanks, and been h
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