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ation. "Mother ... isn't he ... different?" "Juba," the mother said, "there is blood on his hands. He has killed. Can't you see it in his eyes?" "Yes. He has a gun and he has used it. But mother--there is a gentleness in him. Could he not change? Perhaps I, myself...." "Beware," the mother said sternly, "that you do not fall into your own traps." "But you have never really known a man, have you? I mean, except for servants?" "I have also," she said, "never had an intimate conversation with a lion, nor shared my noonday thoughts with a spider." "But lions and spiders can't talk. That's the difference. They have no understanding." "Neither have men. They are like your baby sister, Diana, who is reasonable until it no longer suits her, and then the only difference between her and an animal is that she has more cunning." "Yes," Juba said resignedly, getting to her feet. "If thus it is Written. Thank you, Mother. You are a wellspring of knowledge." "Juba," Mother said with a smile, pulling the girl's cloak, for she liked to please them, "would you like him for a pet? Or your personal servant?" "No," she said, and she could feel the breath sharp in her lungs. "I would rather.... He would make a good spectacle in the gladiatorial contests. He would look well with a sword through his heart." She would not picture him a corpse. She put the picture from her mind. But even less would she picture him unmanned. He would rather die strong than live weak. And Juba--why should she have this pride for him? For she felt pride, pangs as real as the pangs of childbirth. There are different kinds of pride, but the worst kind of pride is pride in strength, pride in power. And she _knew_ that was what she felt. She was sinning with full knowledge and she could not put her sin from her. Juba ran straight to the altar of Juno, and made libation with her own tears. "Mother Juno," she prayed, "take from me my pride. For pride is the wellspring whence flow all sins." But even as she prayed, her reason pricked at her. For she was taught from childhood to be reasonable above all things. And, having spoken with this Man, having found him courteous and educated, she could not believe he was beyond redemption simply because he was a Man. It was true that in many ways he was strange and different. But were they not more alike than different? And as for his violences--were they much better, with their gladiatorial comba
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