roughout this matter in an honourable
and straightforward way."
"I fear, sir, I very little deserve your approval," said Kenrick, with
downcast eyes. "In coming to ask your advice in this case, I wanted
also to say that I have gone so far wrong that I think you ought to be
told how badly I have behaved. It may be that after what I say, you may
not think right to allow me to stay here, sir; but at any rate I shall
have disburdened my own conscience by telling you, and shall perhaps
feel less wretched."
"My dear Kenrick," said Dr Lane, "it was a right and a brave thing of
you to come here for this purpose. Confession is often the first, as it
is one of the most trying parts of repentance; and I hail this as a new
proof of your strong and steady desire to amend. But tell me nothing,
my dear boy. It may be that I know more than you suppose; at any rate,
I accept the will for the deed, and wish to hear no more, unless,
indeed, you desire to consult me as a clergyman, and as your spiritual
adviser, rather than as your master. I do not seek this confidence;
only if there is anything on your conscience of which my advice may help
to relieve you, I do not _forbid_ you to proceed, and I will give you
what help I can."
"I think it would relieve me, sir," said Kenrick; "I have no father; I
have, I am sorry to say, no friend in the school to whom I could speak."
"Then sit down, Kenrick, and be assured beforehand of my real sympathy."
He sat down, and, twitching nervously at the ribbon of his straw hat,
told Dr Lane much of the history of the last two years, confessing,
above all, how badly he had behaved as head of the house, and how much
harm he feared his example had done.
Dr Lane did not attempt to extenuate the heinousness of his offence,
but he pointed out to him what were the fruits and the means of
repentance. He exhorted him to let the sense of his past errors
stimulate him to double future exertions. He told him of many ways in
which, by kindness, by moral courage, by Christian principle, he might
be a help and a blessing to other boys. He earnestly warned him to look
to God for strength, and to watch and pray lest he should enter into
temptation. And then promising him a full and free oblivion of the
past, he knelt down with him and offered up from an overflowing heart a
few words of earnest prayer.
"There is nothing like prayer to relieve the heart, Kenrick," said Dr
Lane; "and now, good-night, an
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