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ade a mistake, a horrible, horrible mistake. It's killing me. I can't go on. I don't love him, Franklin--I don't love Gerald--I can't marry him. And how can I tell him? How can I break faith with him?' Franklin stood very still, his hand clasping hers, the other ceasing its rhythmic, consolatory movement. He held her, this woman whom he had loved for so many years, and over her bent head he looked before him at the frivolous and ugly wall-paper, a chaos of festooned chrysanthemums on a bright pink ground. He gazed at the chrysanthemums, and he wondered, with a direful pang, whether Althea were consciously lying to him. She sobbed on: 'Even in the first week, I knew that something was wrong. Of course I was in love--but it was only that--there was nothing else except being in love. Doubts gnawed at me from the first; I couldn't bear to accept them; I hoped on and on. Only in this last week I've seen that I can't--I can't marry him. Oh----' and the wail was again repeated, 'what shall I do, Franklin?' He spoke at last, and in the disarray of her sobbing and darkened condition--her face pressed against him, her ears full of the sound of her own labouring breath--she could not know to the full how strange his voice was, though she felt strangeness and caught her breath to listen. 'Don't take it like this, Althea,' he said. 'It's not so bad as all this. It can all be made right. You must just tell him the truth and set him free.' And now there was a strange silence. He was waiting, and she was waiting too; she stilled her breath and he stilled his; all each heard was the beating of his and her own heart. And the silence, to Althea, was full of a new and formless fear, and to Franklin of an acceptation sad beyond all the sadnesses of his life. Even before Althea spoke, and while the sweet, the rapturous, the impossible hope softly died away, he knew in his heart, emptied of magic, that it was he Althea needed. She spoke at last, in a changed and trembling voice; it pierced him, for he felt the new fear in it: 'How can I tell him the truth, Franklin?' she said. 'How can I tell you the truth? How can I say that I turned from the real thing, the deepest, most beautiful thing in my life--and hurt it, broke it, put it aside, so blind, so terribly blind I was--and took the unreal thing? How can I ever forgive myself--but, O Franklin, much, much more, how can you ever forgive me?' her voice wailed up, claiming him supre
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