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you are very cruel to me." The voice was childishly broken and muffled. He looked down at her, slowly realising that it was a child he still was dealing with--a child with a child's innocence, repelled by the graver phase of love, unresponsive to the deeper emotions, bewildered by the glimpse of the mature role his attitude had compelled her to accept. That she already had reached that mile-stone and, for a moment, had turned involuntarily to look back and find her childhood already behind her, frightened her. Thinking, perhaps, of his own years, and of what lay behind him, he sighed and looked out over the waste of moorland where the Atlantic was battering the sands of Surf Point. Then his patient gaze shifted to the east, and he saw the surface of Sky Pond, blue as the eyes of the girl who lay crouching in the cushioned corner of the swinging seat, small hands clinched over the handkerchief--a limp bit of stuff damp with her tears. "There is one thing," he said, "that we mustn't do--cry about it--must we, Eileen?" "No-o." "Certainly not. Because there is nothing to make either of us unhappy; is there?" "Oh-h, no." "Exactly. So we're not going to be unhappy; not one bit. First because we love each other, anyway; don't we?" "Y-yes." "Of course we do. And now, just because I happen to love you in that way and also in a different sort of way, in addition to that way, why, it's nothing for anybody to cry about it; is it, Eileen?" "No. . . . No, it is not. . . . But I c-can't help it." "Oh, but you're going to help it, aren't you?" "I--I hope so." He was silent; and presently she said: "I--the reason of it--my crying--is b-b-because I don't wish you to be unhappy." "But, dear, dear little girl, I am not!" "Really?" "No, indeed! Why should I be? You do love me; don't you?" "You know I do." "But not in _that_ way." "N-no; not in _that_ way. . . . I w-wish I did." A thrill passed through him; after a moment he relaxed and leaned forward, his chin resting on his clinched hands: "Then let us go back to the old footing, Eileen." "Can we?" "Yes, we can; and we will--back to the old footing--when nothing of deeper sentiment disturbed us. . . . It was my fault, little girl. Some day you will understand that it was not a wholly selfish fault--because I believed--perhaps only dreamed--that I could make you happier by loving you in--both ways. That is all; it is your happiness--our h
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