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of his passions.--Oh, how my heart swelled with delight at the agony he was thus forced to endure! Affecting to be unconscious of his presence, I assumed the most graceful and voluptuous attitudes I could think of--and he could endure it no longer; for--would you believe it?--he actually fell upon his knees before me, and groveled at my feet, entreating me, in a hoarse whisper, to kill him at once and end his torments, or else yield myself to him! 'My revenge was now accomplished, and I desired no more. I requested him to arise from his abject posture, and listen to me. Then I told him all I knew of his hypocrisy and wickedness--how I had become aware of his criminal intercourse with my mother, which, combined with his vile conduct and intentions in regard to myself, had induced me to punish him in the manner I had done, by exciting his passions almost to madness, and then repulsing him with disdain. I added, maliciously, that my own passions were warm and ardent, and that my young blood sometimes coursed thro' my veins with all the heat of sensual desire--and that were a man, young and handsome, to solicit my favors, I _might possibly yield_, in a thoughtless moment: but as for _him_, (the minister) sooner than submit to _his_ embraces, I would permit the vilest negro in existence, to take me in his arms, and do with me as he pleased. 'All this I told the Rev. Mr. Flanders, and much more; and after listening in evident misery to my remarks, he took himself from the house. After this occurrence, I discontinued my attendance at his church and bible class. When my parents asked me the reason of my nonattendance, I refused to answer them; and at length they became enraged at what they termed my obstinacy, and insisted that I should not fail to attend church on the following Sabbath.--When the Sabbath came, I made no preparation for going to church; which mother perceiving, she began to apply the most reproachful and severe language to me. This irritated me; and without a moment's reflection, I said to her angrily: 'I can well conceive, madam, the reason of your great partiality to the Rev. Mr. Flanders; your many _private interviews_ with him have wonderfully impressed you in his favor!' 'Wretch, what do you mean?' stammered my mother in great confusion, and turning pale and red alternately. 'You know very well what I mean, vile woman!' I cried, enraged beyond all power of restraining my speech, and perfectly rec
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