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said. "'Twas Fate ordained it so--and I would not be your rival, for we have loved each other too long. I must wait to find another lady, and she will be Countess of Dunstanwolde." He bore himself composedly until they had exchanged the final courtesies and parted for the night, and having mounted the stairs had passed through the long gallery which led him to his apartments. When he opened the door it seemed to his fancy that the wax tapers burned but dimly amid the shadows of the great room, and that the pictured faces hanging on the walls looked white and gazed as if aghast. The veins were swollen in his temples and throbbed hard, his blood coursed hot and cold alternately, there were drops starting out upon his brow. He had not known his passions were so tempestuous and that he could be prey to such pangs of anguish and of rage. Hitherto he had held himself in check, but now 'twas as if he had lost his hold on the reins which controlled galloping steeds. The blood of men who had been splendid savages centuries ago ran wild within him. His life for thirty years had been noble and just and calm. Being endowed with all gifts by Nature and his path made broad by Fortune, he had dealt in high honour with all bestowed upon him. But now for this night he knew he was a different man, and that his hour had come. He stood in the centre of the chamber and tossed up his hands, laughing a mad, low, harsh laugh. "Not as Hugh de Mertoun came back," he said. "Good God! no, no!" The rage of him, body and soul, made him sick and suffocated him. "Could a man go mad in such case?" he cried. "I am not sane! I cannot reason! I would not have believed it." His arteries so throbbed that he tore open the lace at his throat and flung back his head. "I cannot reason!" he said. "I know now how men _kill_. And yet he is as sweet a soul as Heaven ever made." He paced the great length of the chamber to and fro. "'Tis not Nature," he said. "It cannot be borne--he to hold her to his breast, and _I--I_ to stand aside. Her eyes--her lovely, melting, woman's eyes!" Men have been mad before for less of the same torment, and he whose nature was fire, and whose imagination had the power to torture him by picturing all he had lost and all another man had won, was only saved because he knew his frenzy. "To this place itself she will be brought," he thought. "In these rooms she will move, wife and queen and mistress. He will so worshi
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