FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   720   721   722   723   724   725   726   727   728   729   730   731   732   733   734   735   736   737   738   739   740   741   742   743   744  
745   746   747   748   749   750   751   752   753   754   755   756   757   758   759   760   761   762   763   764   765   766   767   768   769   >>   >|  
or other disagreeable subjects, is sure to follow!" "Death! No, Dick--not now. Marriage-bells and joy, Dick! We shall have a wedding!" "What! You will marry at last! And it must be that beautiful Caroline Lyndsay! It must--it must! You can never love another! You know it, my dear, dear master. I shall see you, then, happy before I die." "Tut, foolish old friend!" said Darrell, leaning his aria tenderly on Fairthorn's shoulder, and walking on slowly towards the house. "How often must I tell you that no Marriage-bells can ring for me!" "But you have told me, too, that you went to Twickenham to steal a sight of her again; and that it was the sight of her that made you resolve to wed no one else. And when I have railed against her for fickleness, have you not nearly frightened me out of my wits, as if no one might rail against her but yourself? And now she is free--and did you not grant that she would not refuse your hand, and would be true and faithful henceforth? And yet you insist on being--granite." "No, Dick, not granite; I wish I were." "Granite and pride," persisted Dick, courageously. "If one chips a bit off the granite, one only breaks one's spade against the pride." "Pride--you too!" muttered Darrell, mournfully; then aloud: "No, it is not pride now, whatever it might have been even yesterday. But I would rather be racked by all the tortures that pious inquisitors ever invented out of compassion for obstinate heretics, than condemn the woman I have so fatally loved to a penance the misery of which she cannot foresee. She would accept me?--certainly! Why! Because she thinks she owes me reparation--because she pities me. And my heart tells me that I might become cruel, and mean, and vindictive, if I were to live day by day with one who created in me, while my life was at noon, a love never known in its morn, and to feel that that love's sole return was the pity vouchsafed to the nightfall of my age. No; if she pitied, but did not love me, when, eighteen years ago, we parted under yonder beech-tree, I should be a dotard to dream that woman's pity mellows into love as our locks become grey, and Youth turns our vows into ridicule. It is not pride that speaks here; it is rather humility, Dick. But we must not now talk of old age and bygones. Youth and marriage-bells, Dick! Know that, I have been for hours pondering how to reconcile with my old-fashioned notions dear Lionel's happiness. We must think of the
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   720   721   722   723   724   725   726   727   728   729   730   731   732   733   734   735   736   737   738   739   740   741   742   743   744  
745   746   747   748   749   750   751   752   753   754   755   756   757   758   759   760   761   762   763   764   765   766   767   768   769   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
granite
 

Darrell

 

Marriage

 

vindictive

 

fatally

 

penance

 
misery
 

condemn

 

invented

 

compassion


obstinate
 

heretics

 

reparation

 
pities
 
thinks
 
Because
 

foresee

 
accept
 

nightfall

 

speaks


humility

 

ridicule

 

mellows

 

bygones

 

marriage

 
notions
 

Lionel

 
happiness
 

fashioned

 

reconcile


pondering

 

dotard

 

return

 

created

 
vouchsafed
 

inquisitors

 
yonder
 

parted

 

pitied

 

eighteen


henceforth

 

tenderly

 

Fairthorn

 
shoulder
 

leaning

 
foolish
 
friend
 

walking

 
slowly
 
Twickenham