diminished, but
rather had increased, their anxious longings for their native home.
The sorrows, disappointments, and fatigues, which, throughout these
tedious years, were endured by the two Henrys, are of that dull
monotonous kind of suffering better omitted than described--mere
repetitions of the exile's woe, that shall give place to the transporting
joy of return from banishment! Yet, often as the younger had reckoned,
with impatient wishes, the hours which were passed distant from her he
loved, no sooner was his disastrous voyage at an end, no sooner had his
feet trod upon the shore of Britain, than a thousand wounding fears made
him almost doubt whether it were happiness or misery he had obtained by
his arrival. If Rebecca were living, he knew it must be happiness; for
his heart dwelt with confidence on her faith, her unchanging sentiments.
"But death might possibly have ravished from his hopes what no mortal
power could have done." And thus the lover creates a rival in every ill,
rather than suffer his fears to remain inanimate.
The elder Henry had less to fear or to hope than his son; yet he both
feared and hoped with a sensibility that gave him great anxiety. He
hoped his brother would receive him with kindness, after his long
absence, and once more take his son cordially to his favour. He longed
impatiently to behold his brother; to see his nephew; nay, in the ardour
of the renewed affection he just now felt, he thought even a distant view
of Lady Clementina would be grateful to his sight! But still, well
remembering the pomp, the state, the pride of William, he could not rely
on _his_ affection, so much he knew that it depended on external
circumstances to excite or to extinguish his love. Not that he feared an
absolute repulsion from his brother; but he feared, what, to a delicate
mind, is still worse--reserved manners, cold looks, absent sentences, and
all that cruel retinue of indifference with which those who are beloved
so often wound the bosom that adores them.
By inquiring of their countrymen (whom they met as they approached to the
end of their voyage), concerning their relation the dean, the two Henrys
learned that he was well, and had for some years past been exalted to the
bishopric of ---. This news gave them joy, while it increased their fear
of not receiving an affectionate welcome.
The younger Henry, on his landing, wrote immediately to his uncle,
acquainting him with his father'
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