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possessed him. Then standing still, he pressed his hands to his
temples, as if to crowd back the pain which throbbed and ached there.

"Oh, it is terrible!" he uttered in a subdued voice; "with my eyes
open I stand on the brink of a precipice. I see it, and cannot draw
back. If no helping hand is stretched out to save me, I must fall in,
and my good name must perish with me. And to be obliged to confess
that not my own want of judgment, no rashness nor presumption on my
part, but only love of mankind, love of my brethren, has brought me
to this! To each one who held out his hand to me, I gave the hand of a
friend, every one in need I helped. And for that reason, for the good
I have done, I stand on the verge of an abyss."

He cast his looks toward heaven, and tears shone in his eyes. "Was it,
then, wrong? O my God! was it, then, culpable to trust men, and must I
atone with my honor for what I did from love?"

But this compunction, this depression, did not last long. Gotzkowsky
soon arose above his grief, and bearing his head aloft as if to shake
off the cares which lowered around it, he said in a determined tone:
"I must not lose my courage. This day requires all my presence
of mind, and the decisive moment shall not find me cowed and
pusillanimous."

He was about to set himself to work again, when a repeated knocking
at the door interrupted him. At his reluctant bidding it opened,
and Bertram appeared on the threshold. "Pardon me," he said, almost
timidly; "I knew that you wished to be alone, but I could not bear
it any longer. I must see you. Only think, Father Gotzkowsky, it is a
fortnight since I arrived, and I have scarcely seen you in this time;
therefore do not be angry with me if I disobey your orders, and come
to you, although I know that you are busy."

Gotzkowsky nodded to him with a sad smile. "I thank you for it," said
he. "I had ordered Peter not to admit any one. You are an exception,
as you know, my son."

A pause ensued, during which Bertram examined Gotzkowsky with
a searching look. The latter had seated himself again at his
writing-table, and with troubled looks was examining his papers.

Bertram had been absent for nearly a year. The silent grief which day
and night gnawed at his heart had undermined his health and exhausted
his physical strength. The physicians had deemed a prolonged residence
in Nice necessary. If Bertram yielded to their judgment and repaired
to Nice, it was because he