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e followed him. As irresistibly as ever he drew her. "Jerome! Jerome! Where are you going?" "To ruin!" exclaimed he, turning upon her with that barbaric fierceness which seems to underlie everything strong in nature--"to ruin, where you women without principle, have sent many a better man! To ruin, and to hell, if I choose," he added, with fearful emphasis. "My going and my coming are no longer any concern of yours!" "Yes, they are, Jerome," she assured him, deprecatingly. "Don't leave me in anger, Jerome!" "Not in anger? Then, how--in delight?" There was now a menacing gleam in his eye which more than ever alarmed her. "My cause is lost. You have done me all the wrong you could, and now that I am dismissed, set aside, told to begone, debased, and dethroned, you expect me to be delighted over it, do you?" "No, Jerome; but do not leave me feeling so. Promise me to do nothing rash." "I will not promise you anything! You have not spared my feelings, why should _I_ spare yours? Since your affection for me has moderated into that platonic kind, which admits of your happiness in union with another, I will do whatever I please to do, knowing no act of mine, however dreadful, will affect you." "Oh, Jerome, do not say that! You must see, you must know in your heart, that I do still care for you--Oh, God! more than I ought." "And yet not enough to make you do what is right!" "But to right you, will wrong Rube," she answered in confusion. "Enough, then; you know your own feelings, or ought to. Since Rube is the one dearest to you, marry him!" He turned again upon his heel. Obeying an impulse she could not resist, Mell once more detained him. It is hard to die, everybody says; but to die yourself must be easier than to give up the one you love. "Jerome, wait a moment! Come back! Jerome, you do not realize what a dishonorable thing this is you are persuading me to do?" "Don't I?" he laughed wildly. "God Almighty! Mellville, what do you take me for? Wouldn't I have been here a week ago, two weeks ago, but for the battle I have had to fight with my own scruples--but for the war I have had to wage with my own soul? I have said to myself, again and again, 'I will not do this thing though I die!' But when I started out upon this journey, it had come to this: 'I must do this thing or else--die!'" Shaken as a storm-rifted tree bending in the blast, she was not yet uprooted. "It is hard, hard," she murm
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