e a lump of sugar, and
let my hand drop again.
"Joe!" instantly shouted Mr. Gray, who sat in his chair watching us as
we filed out.
"Yes, Sir."
"Come here, Joe, and all the boys remain."
I was a little fellow of seven years old, and I pity my poor little
self as I look back upon that moment. I advanced to the master's chair,
and stood before him in the presence of the school, with my guilty right
hand closed at my side. There was awful silence as the master said,
"Joe, what have you in your hand?"
"Nothing, Sir."
"Joe, hold out your right hand."
I held it out.
"Now, Joe, you say that there is nothing in your hand?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Open your hand, Joe."
I opened it, and the lump of sugar dropped to the floor.
It was the first lie I had ever told, and my terror and shame were such
that the recollection has been a kind of good angel to me ever since.
The master said a few solemn words, the justice of which my poor little
heart could not deny, although he had exposed me to a cruel ordeal; and
then, with an air like that of a Lord Chief Justice putting on the black
cap to sentence a murderer to death, he concluded: "Joe, you must be
severely punished. Go to Mrs. Gray, and tell her that you are to go to
the Preay Chamber."
There was a silent shudder of sympathy among the boys as I departed; and
finding Mrs. Gray, I told her, with sobs of terror, my doom. The good
woman listened kindly; and then, with the tenderness of a mother, she
pointed out to me the meanness of the theft and of the falsehood, and we
both sat and cried together. Then she said, "Joe, I am sure that you see
that you have done wrong, and that you are very sorry, and don't mean to
do so any more."
I was utterly broken down, and sobbed in a kind of hysterical paroxysm.
"Now, Joe, go back to Mr. Gray, tell him that we have been talking
together, and that you are truly sorry, and will try to do better, and
that this time, and for my sake, I hope that you may be let off from
the Preay Chamber."
I went back, and with tears and catchings of the breath I repeated the
message. Mr. Gray listened; and when I had done, he said:
"Joe, you are a very naughty boy; but as you say that you are sorry, and
will try to mend, and as dear Mrs. Gray intercedes for you, you need not
go this time to the Preay Chamber. But remember, it is only for this
time."
I was like a victim suddenly released from the stake, and the narrow
escape I had ha
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