s came and went. There was a mist in
her brain as she talked to the Major-Generals and Deputy-Secretaries--it
did not in the least obscure what she found to say--and in the midst of
it the formless idea that he must wish to attach a special importance to
his visit. This took shape and line when they were alone, and he spoke
of out-sitting the others. It impelled her to walk to the window and
open it. "You might stay to lunch," she said, addressing a pair of crows
in altercation on the verandah.
"There is nearly half an hour before lunch," he said. "Can I convince
you in that time, I wonder, that I'm not an absolute fool?"
Alicia turned and came back to her sofa. She may have had a prevision of
the need of support. "I hardly think," she said, drawing the long breath
with which we try to subdue a tempest within, "that it would take
so long." She looked with careful criticism at the violets in his
buttonhole.
"I've had a supreme experience," he said, "very strange and very lovely.
I am living in it, moving in it, speaking in it," he added quickly,
watching her face; "so don't, for Heaven's sake, touch it roughly."
She lifted her hand in nervous, involuntary deprecation. "Why should
you suppose I would touch it roughly?" There was that in her voice which
cried out that she would rather not touch it at all; but Lindsay, on the
brink of his confidence, could not suppose it, did not hear it. He knew
her so well.
"A great many people will," he said. "I can't bear the thought of their
fingers. That is one reason that brings me to you."
She faced him fully at this; her eyelids quivered, but she looked
straight at him. It nerved her to be brought into his equation, even in
the form which should finally be eliminated. She contrived a smile.
"I believe you know already," Lindsay cried.
"I have heard something. Don't be alarmed--not from people, from Miss
Howe."
"Wonderful woman! I haven't told her."
"Is that always necessary? She has intuitions. In this case," Alicia
went on, with immense courage, "I didn't believe them."
"Why?" he asked enjoyingly. Anything to handle his delight--he would
even submit it to analysis.
She hesitated--her business was in great waters, the next instant might
engulf her. "It's so curiously unlike you," she faltered. "If she
had been a duchess--a very exquisite person, or somebody very
clever--remember I haven't seen her."
"You haven't, so I must forgive you invidious comparis
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