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" I acknowledged. "And--and of course he told you----" "Everything, I suppose." She kept her eyes lowered, persistently, looking gravely and sadly at the worn carpet. "At--at first I couldn't understand," she began. "Frieda told me days and days ago that he was engaged--she had seen it in a paper. Of course, he never spoke to me about it. When--when he began to say those things, I thought he was out of his senses and--and I was afraid. He was pale and trembling all over, and then I realized that he was asking me to marry him. Oh! David! For a moment a dreadful temptation came to me. My baby was in my arms--and this meant that I should always have bread for him--that he could be taken care of--that it wouldn't matter, then, if I ever could sing again. I--I could buy health and happiness for him, and strength. Oh! It came to me just like a flash, and then it went away again, thank God! I couldn't listen to him. It meant that I should have to give up the memories that are still living and abandon the struggle, yes, the blessed struggle for my livelihood and Baby's, to go to him as a loveless wife. No, it was impossible, David! And he was so unhappy, so frightfully unhappy when I told him I could never marry him, and--and then I ran away. And he had always been so kind to me, Dave, and so considerate--not like you, of course, because nobody could be like you, but he was always so nice and pleasant, and I never had the slightest idea that--that he had--that he was in love with me. And--and is it true, David, that he is engaged to another woman?" "I am afraid so, Frances, and I think she is a very fine and good woman, and--and I am sorry for her. He can never have really loved her, of course, but you know that Gordon was always a schemer, that he had mapped out all his life like a man planning the building of a house. And then, all of a sudden, he found out that nature was too strong for him, that hearts and minds can't be shut within metes and bounds, and that the real love in him was paramount. Oh! The pity of it all!" I could see that she was also strongly affected and that it had been a shock to her, a shrewd and painful blow, to hear my friend begging for a love she could not give. He had been one of a few people lately come into her life who had helped to mitigate its bitterness. Her soul, full of gratitude, had revolted at having been compelled to inflict pain on him, and yet she had been forced to do so an
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