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n then she did not understand. "I found them," he explained, furtively stroking the shabby sheets, but attempting a bluff and off-hand tone, "I found them--Oh, years ago!--just stuck off in a cupboard _like trash that nobody wanted any more_. And so--because I _did_ want them--I brought them down here." "_You_ wanted them?" Sheila gasped. "But, Ted----" And then he had her in his arms, and his eyes--full of the tears he had tried to repress--were gazing down into hers! "Don't you suppose I realize what you might have done? Don't you suppose I've seen what you've given up for me--for me and Eric?" She could not speak. She could only gaze back at him, incredulous still of the comprehension that he had so long concealed from her. "I've been a selfish brute, Sheila," he went on. "I've craved all of you for myself and my child, and I've had all of you. It's been my man's way, I reckon, for I couldn't have helped it. If I had it to do over again, it would be just the same--though I'm ashamed of myself now. Of course I didn't ask you to give up your writing, but I'd quite as well have asked you. For I guessed that you'd done it--after Eric had scarlet fever--and I _let_ you, without a word. I've let you sacrifice your talent ever since, too--needlessly. Yes, I've _let_ you--for I've seen the whole thing." She had sometimes felt that the tragedy of her life had been in all that Ted had not seen. Now, finding that he had seen so much more than she had ever suspected--so much of what had been profound suffering to her--she might readily have blamed him more than she had ever done before. But generosity rushed out of her to meet his generosity--belated though his was. "No, no," she interrupted, "it isn't that you let me give up my work. The fault isn't yours. That awful night--when it seemed that Eric would die--I offered my work for his life--I offered it to _God_! That was why I didn't write afterward." Ted fixed pitying eyes upon her: "You poor little girl! Was it as bad as that with you? I knew I was taking advantage of your conscience, but I never dreamed you'd carried your remorse so far. Did you really believe you had to buy God's mercy? Oh, no, dear. It's only your husband that's seized the opportunity to extract a sacrifice from your Puritan conscience. But with all my selfishness, I haven't stopped you--I haven't been the end of your talent." She started to tell him of her late e
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