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timate friendships among them. And then there were letters from Aunt Prue, and childish, affectionate notes from dear little Prue. Marjorie's life was not meagre; still she was not "happy enough." She wrote to Aunt Prue that she was not "satisfied." "That's a girl's old story," Mrs. Holmes said to her husband. "She must _evolve_, John. There's enough in her for something to come out of her." "What do girls want to _do_?" he asked, looking up from his writing. "Be satisfied," laughed his wife. "Did you go through that delusive period?" "Was I not a girl?" "And here's Prue growing up, to say some day that she isn't satisfied." "No; to say some day that she is." "_When_ were you satisfied?" "At what age? You will not believe that I was thirty-five, before I was satisfied with my life. And then I was satisfied, because I was willing for God to have his way with me. If it were not for that willingness, I shouldn't be satisfied yet." "Then you can tell Marjorie not to wait until she is half of three score and ten before she gives herself up." "Her will is more yielding than mine; she doesn't seek great things for herself." The letter from Switzerland about being "satisfied" Marjorie read again and again. There was only one way for childhood, girlhood, or womanhood to be satisfied; and that one way was to acknowledge God in every thing, and let him direct every step. Then if one were not satisfied, it was dissatisfaction with God's will; God's will was not enough. Hollis had made short visits at home twice since she had left school. The first time, she had been at her grandfather's and saw him but half an hour; the second time, they met not at all, as she was attending to some business for Mrs. Holmes, and spending a day and night with Mrs. Harrowgate. This twenty-first summer she was not happy; she had not been happy for months. It was a new experience, not to be happy. She had been born happy. I do not think any trial, excepting the one she was suffering, would have so utterly unsettled her. It was a strange thing--but, no, I do not know that it was a strange thing; but it may be that you are surprised that she could have this kind of trial; as she expressed it, she was not sure that she was a Christian! All her life she had thought about God; now, when she thought about herself, she began to fear and doubt and tremble. No wonder that she slept fitfully, that she awoke in the night to weep,
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