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fast. That poor woman--she's half off her head. When the baby's buried I'll have to go and look out for another room before he gets a-comin' out." "I hope they'll keep him there," muttered the little model suddenly. "They give him a month," said Creed. "Only a month!" The old butler looked at her. 'There's more stuff' in you,' he seemed to say, 'than ever I had thought.' "Because of his servin' of his country," he remarked aloud. "I'm sorry about the poor little baby," said the little model in her stolid voice. "Westminister" shook his head. "I never suspected him of goin' to live," he said. The girl, biting the finger-tip of her white cotton glove, was staring out at the traffic. Like a pale ray of light entering the now dim cavern of the old man's mind, the thought came to Creed that he did not quite understand her. He had in his time had occasion to class many young persons, and the feeling that he did not quite know her class of person was like the sensation a bat might have, surprised by daylight. Suddenly, without saying good-bye to him, she walked away. 'Well,' he thought, looking after her, 'your manners ain't improved by where you're living, nor your appearance neither, for all your new clothes.' And for some time he stood thinking of the stare in her eyes and that abrupt departure. Through the crystal clearness of the fundamental flux the mind could see at that same moment Bianca leaving her front gate. Her sensuous exaltation, her tremulous longing after harmony, had passed away; in her heart, strangely mingled, were these two thoughts: 'If only she were a lady!' and, 'I am glad she is not a lady!' Of all the dark and tortuous places of this life, the human heart is the most dark and tortuous; and of all human hearts none are less clear, more intricate than the hearts of all that class of people among whom Bianca had her being. Pride was a simple quality when joined with a simple view of life, based on the plain philosophy of property; pride was no simple quality when the hundred paralysing doubts and aspirations of a social conscience also hedged it round. In thus going forth with the full intention of restoring the little model to her position in the household, her pride fought against her pride, and her woman's sense of ownership in the man whom she had married wrestled with the acquired sentiments of freedom, liberality, equality, good taste. With her spirit thus confused, and
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