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gly, "I would rather even marry Englehart than continue here." "Then you will marry Mr. Gregory?" "I do not know--either that or die, I suppose--whichever God pleases. I am weary of being a prisoner--weary of you, of every thing about me. All that I cared for is lost to me, and I might as well surrender, I suppose; not at discretion, however!" She turned from me silently, and sought her couch again; but I felt instinctively that she slept no more; and so we lay, silently watching one another, until morning. I dared not renew my efforts to escape, at all events, in the night-time, when I knew the house was locked, and watched without, as well as within--for this was the old habit of the square. One--two--three--four o'clock came, and passed, and were reported by the deep-tongued clock in the room beneath me, before I slept, and then I dreamed a vision so vivid, that I wakened from it excited--exhausted--as though its frightful figments had been stern realities. I thought that the noble dog Ossian came to me again and laid the double-footed key upon my lap, as he had done at Beauseincourt--staining my white dress with blood, not mud, this time, and that Colonel La Vigne struck it furiously to the floor, and handed me instead the wooden one I had carved, with the words of the proverb: "The opportunity lost is like the arrow sped: it comes no more. Your wooden key will fail you next time, as it has failed you this, and you will be baffled--baffled--as you tried to baffle me! Miriam, unseen I pursue you!" Then he laughed horribly, and faded in the gray dawn, to which I awoke, covered with cold dew, and trembling in every limb. Had he been there, indeed, in spiritual presence? Was it his hand that had left that hand about my brow--that surging in my brain--that weight upon my heart? O God! had I indeed become the sport of fiends? At last I wept, and in my tears found sullen comfort. The image so often caviled at as false in _Hamlet_ came to me then as the readiest interpretation of what I suffered, and thus proved its own fidelity and truth. "A sea of sorrow" did indeed seem to roll above me, against which I felt the vanity of "taking arms." My destruction was decreed, and I had nothing to do but suffer and submit! All the persecution I had sustained since my father's death, at the hands of Evelyn and Basil Bainrothe--all my wrongs, beginning at the heart-betrayal of Claude, and ending with the immurement
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