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ature of the case, utterly unprepared for the scene that followed. For a moment, she was paralysed at the sight of the doctor's ghastly pallor and startled eyes as they lighted upon the stranger's face. "You?" he breathed through stiffened lips. "Yes, Brian. I was given the chance as Nurse Grey was ill. I had to see you again!" her voice was fiercely agitated. "Won't you hear me?" "Good God! Don't you understand that you are nothing to me?--less than nothing!" His eyes blazed. "Yet you never divorced me! That gave me hope. Have you no forgiveness? No pity?" A stony silence. "Oh, you are hard!--_hard_! It is not fair to punish any one forever for one mistake----" "Mistake, do you call it?" "Sin, if you will have it. Are _you_ sinless? After all, we are but human, and we forgive as we hope to be forgiven." She made a movement as if to fall at his feet, and Honor rushed blindly from the room. Her one instinct was to get away somewhere and hide--hide from the knowledge so ruthlessly thrust upon her. It was too horrible to contemplate. She shuddered from head to foot, and shivered as with ague. Out into the open she ran, among the dust-laden crotons and azaleas, and the florid shrubberies of the Indian garden, now bathed in soft moonlight. Scarcely heeding her footsteps, she stumbled to a bench beneath a laburnum. If it harboured reptiles, she was indifferent. Let her be bitten and die! She was crushed and bowed to the earth with a burden of grief too great to endure,--too hopeless to think upon. What was it that he had offered her? Had he meant to insult her? Never! He loved her too well. He would have killed himself rather than have treated her lightly. What was it then? Her mind refused to act. It acknowledged only one thought, and that was, severance--immediate, final--from the being she loved most on earth. That was inevitable. Brian Dalton was married. He had been married all the time. Joyce had misunderstood; or he had lied to her. No. She would not allow to herself that he had lied. His was not a petty nature given to lying, or to the faults of the weak and timid. He was a daring and defiant sinner, "risking damnation," as he had once said, for the desire of his heart. She could now understand his bitterness, his recurring moods of sadness and almost of remorse; for he was plotting all the while against the honour of the girl he respected as well as loved. Consecutive thought was
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