oach of death, seemed also more alarmed at the thoughts of the
Day of Judgment.
She ventured more than once or twice to return to the subject of her
sins, and implored Theobald to make quite sure that they were forgiven
her. She hinted that she considered his professional reputation was at
stake; it would never do for his own wife to fail in securing at any rate
a pass. This was touching Theobald on a tender spot; he winced and
rejoined with an impatient toss of the head, "But, Christina, they _are_
forgiven you"; and then he entrenched himself in a firm but dignified
manner behind the Lord's prayer. When he rose he left the room, but
called Ernest out to say that he could not wish it prolonged.
Joey was no more use in quieting his mother's anxiety than Theobald had
been--indeed he was only Theobald and water; at last Ernest, who had not
liked interfering, took the matter in hand, and, sitting beside her, let
her pour out her grief to him without let or hindrance.
She said she knew she had not given up all for Christ's sake; it was this
that weighed upon her. She had given up much, and had always tried to
give up more year by year, still she knew very well that she had not been
so spiritually minded as she ought to have been. If she had, she should
probably have been favoured with some direct vision or communication;
whereas, though God had vouchsafed such direct and visible angelic visits
to one of her dear children, yet she had had none such herself--nor even
had Theobald.
She was talking rather to herself than to Ernest as she said these words,
but they made him open his ears. He wanted to know whether the angel had
appeared to Joey or to Charlotte. He asked his mother, but she seemed
surprised, as though she expected him to know all about it, then, as if
she remembered, she checked herself and said, "Ah! yes--you know nothing
of all this, and perhaps it is as well." Ernest could not of course
press the subject, so he never found out which of his near relations it
was who had had direct communication with an immortal. The others never
said anything to him about it, though whether this was because they were
ashamed, or because they feared he would not believe the story and thus
increase his own damnation, he could not determine.
Ernest has often thought about this since. He tried to get the facts out
of Susan, who he was sure would know, but Charlotte had been beforehand
with him. "No, Master Ernes
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