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feeling of shame on her part. As she thought it over, it seemed to her that she detected something unnatural in his tone, something forced and constrained. She thought again of Eric. Where is he now? Is he talking with any one? He certainly suffers deeply; he has saved himself and thee. Her thoughts were like a whirlwind. Now she scornfully exulted. It was only a trifling jest, an experiment, a bold play! She, Bella, the strong, had only tried to bring a young man to his knees before her, and she would have thrust him away with contempt if she had succeeded. She can say this--who can contradict her? Her whole past life was good evidence in her favor, and yet she felt ashamed of this lie. But what is now to be done? she asked again. She is simply to be quiet; she will meet the man with indifference; her last word to him was to warn him against any attachment to Manna. There was the whole! That was the pivot on which, turned the whole bold game. She promised herself to root out of her soul every passionate feeling, every violent emotion. She was now grateful to the destiny that had aroused within her the strong forces of nature--her virtue had now been tried in the fire. She took the veil from her face, and looked up at the stars. They should be witnesses that all immoderate, all childish allurements, that were unworthy of her, should be put far away. Now she silently thought of what Eric had said, "For this end are culture and knowledge bestowed upon us, that we should rule over ourselves." As they were going up the hill on which Wolfsgarten was situated, there came over her a feeling of imprisonment; she thought her hands were tied, and she put them outside of her mantle. Clodwig thought she was seeking his hand; he took hers and held it with a gentle pressure. They reached Wolfsgarten in silence, and Clodwig said, as they stood in the brightly lighted garden-saloon,-- "We can be silent in each other's company; and this is the fairest comradeship, when each one abides in himself and yet is with another." Bella nodded, looking at the whole surroundings with a wondering glance. What is all this? To whom does all this belong? What power has brought her here? Where has she been? How would it be now, here alone with her husband, if---- It seemed to her that she must fall on her knees, grasp his hand, and beg for forgiveness. But it is better, she thought, not for herself--she believed that she was ready to
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