FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114  
115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   >>   >|  
y very direct, straightforward disposition." "You were right, Evelyn, certainly, in your conclusion, and, if you please, will never ask for any explanation of the breach between Claude and myself. It is irrevocable; but I am sorry to see him so resentful. He cannot conceal his displeasure against me, and yet I have never offended him willingly, I am sure." "Caprice and coquetry are not so lightly estimated by every one, as you hold them, nor yet counted causes for gratitude by most men, let me assure you, Miriam." "Who has accused me of these?" I questioned, with a flashing eye, a flushing cheek. "Does your own heart acquit you?" she asked, evasively. "It does," I answered, solemnly, "as does the God who reads all hearts, and to whom I am now alone answerable for any motives of mine." "Since when have you grown so independent, Miriam?" she asked, ironically. "Since the death of my father," I replied. "Ah! you do not accredit delegated allegiance it seems," turning her face aside. "Not as far as my own feelings and their sources are concerned. As to my acts, I hope never to commit one of which all just men might not approve." "We shall see. However, a year more or less makes little difference. Claude Bainrothe, improved, will return within a year, probably, and all may still be well. Matters will then, I fancy, be in his own hands, pretty much. "All _is_ well, Evelyn, if you could only think so, and now, once for all, make up your mind, definitely, to let _well_ alone, for I must not be approached again on this subject, I warn you!" I spoke with a decision which, at times, had its effect even on the "indomitable Evelyn," as my father often had called her, playfully, and again the broken engagement was consigned to silence. Yet on my mind, my feelings, the effect of this severe and sudden trial was far more bitter and profound than met the outward eye. I had been sustained at first by a sense of pride, self-respect, and womanly indignation, that prevented me from feeling the whole extent of the wound I had received; but with reaction came that dull, dumb, aching of the heart, which all who have felt it may recognize as more wearing than keener pain, or more declared suffering. I suppose the Spartan who felt the gnawing of the hidden fox was a mere type of this species of anguish, which reproduces itself wherever wounded pride underlies concealment, or wherever injustice and ingratitude r
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114  
115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

Evelyn

 

Miriam

 

effect

 

feelings

 

father

 

Claude

 

anguish

 

reproduces

 
hidden
 

decision


species

 

subject

 
pretty
 
injustice
 

ingratitude

 

Matters

 

concealment

 

underlies

 

wounded

 

indomitable


approached
 

gnawing

 

respect

 
womanly
 

aching

 

sustained

 

wearing

 

recognize

 

indignation

 

extent


reaction

 

feeling

 

prevented

 
outward
 

consigned

 
Spartan
 

silence

 
engagement
 
received
 

called


playfully
 

broken

 
severe
 

suppose

 

declared

 

keener

 

suffering

 

profound

 
sudden
 

bitter