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strongest during cessation from masturbation and tends to
disappear when the habit is resumed. He has never had sexual
intercourse because he prefers his own method of gratification
and feels great abhorrence for professional prostitutes; he could
not afford to marry. Any indecency or immorality, except (he
observes) his own variety, disgusts him.
At the earliest period no mental images accompanied the act of
masturbation. At about the age of 8, however, sexual excitement
began to be constantly associated with ideas of being whipped. At
or soon after this age only the fear of disgrace prevented him
from committing serious childish offenses likely to be punished
by a good whipping. Parents and masters, however, seem to have
used corporal punishment very sparingly.
At first this desire was for whipping in general, without
reference to the operator. Soon after the age of 10, however, he
began to wish that certain boy friends should be the operators.
At about the same time definite desire arose for closer contact
with these friends and later for definite indecent acts which,
however, the subject failed to specify; he probably meant mutual
masturbation. These desires were under control, and the fear of
ridicule seems to have been the chief restraining cause. At about
the age of 15 he began to realize that such acts might be
considered morally bad and wrong, and this led to reticence and
careful concealment. Up to the age of 20 there were four definite
attachments to persons of his own sex. There was a tendency,
sometimes, to regard women as possible whippers, and this became
stronger at 22, the images of the two sexes then mingling in his
thoughts of flagellation. Latterly the mental accompaniments of
masturbation have been less personal, lapsing into the mental
picture of being whipped by an unknown and vague somebody. When
definite it has always been a man, and preferably of the type of
a schoolmaster. His desire has been for punishment by whips,
canes, or birches, especially upon the buttocks. He has always
shrunk from the thought of the production of blood or bruises. He
wishes, in mental contemplation, for a punishment sufficiently
severe to make him anxious to stop it, and yet not able to stop
it. He also takes pleasure in the idea of being tied up so as to
be un
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