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trials in life, it is a support and an infallible defence; that it can enforce the precepts which come from God--in fact that it can replace God--this is a terrible mistake. It exposes one in a fatal moment to the loss of one's self-esteem, and to fall suddenly and forever into that dismal ocean of bitterness where Camors at that instant was struggling in despair, like a drowning man in the darkness of midnight. He abandoned himself, on this evil night, to a final conflict full of agony; and he was beaten. The next evening at six o'clock he was at the house of the Marquise. He found her in her boudoir, surrounded by all her regal luxury. She was half buried in a fauteuil in the chimney-corner, looking a little pale and fatigued. She received him with her usual coldness and self-possession. "Good-day," she said. "How are you?" "Not very well," replied Camors. "What is the matter?" "I fancy that you know." She opened her large eyes wide with surprise, but did not reply. "I entreat you, Madame," continued Camors, smiling--"no more music, the curtain is raised, and the drama has begun." "Ah! we shall see." "Do you love me?" he continued; "or were you simply acting, to try me, last night? Can you, or will you, tell me?" "I certainly could, but I do not wish to do so." "I had thought you more frank." "I have my hours." "Well, then," said Camors, "if your hours of frankness have passed, mine have begun." "That would be compensation," she replied. "And I will prove it to you," continued Camors. "I shall make a fete of it," said the Marquise, throwing herself back on the sofa, as if to make herself comfortable in order to enjoy an agreeable conversation. "I love you, Madame; and as you wish to be loved. I love you devotedly and unto death--enough to kill myself, or you!" "That is well," said the Marquise, softly. "But," he continued in a hoarse and constrained tone, "in loving you, in telling you of it, in trying to make you share my love, I violate basely the obligations of honor of which you know, and others of which you know not. It is a crime, as you have said. I do not try to extenuate my offence. I see it, I judge it, and I accept it. I break the last moral tie that is left me; I leave the ranks of men of honor, and I leave also the ranks of humanity. I have nothing human left except my love, nothing sacred but you; but my crime elevates itself by its magnitude. Well, I interp
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