them, another shirt was given me, and the bricks,
clotted with blood, removed. I, meantime, lay half dead on my mattress;
my thirst was excessive. The surgeon ordered me some wine. Two
sentinels were stationed in the front cell, and I was thus left four days
in peace, unironed. Broth also was given me daily, and how delicious
this was to taste, how much it revived and strengthened me, is wholly
impossible to describe. Two days I lay in a slumbering kind of trance,
forced by unquenchable thirst to drink whenever I awoke. My feet and
hands were swelled; the pains in my back and limbs were excessive.
On the fifth day the doors were ready; the inner was entirely plated with
iron, and I was fettered as before: perhaps they found further cruelty
unnecessary. The principal chain, however, which fastened me to the
wall, like that I had before broken, was thicker than the first. Except
this, the capitulation was strictly kept. They deeply regretted that,
without the King's express commands, they could not lighten my
afflictions, wished me fortitude and patience, and barred up my doors.
It is necessary I should here describe my dress. My hands being fixed
and kept asunder by an iron bar, and my feet chained to the wall, I could
neither put on shirt nor stockings in the usual mode; the shirt was
therefore tied, and changed once a fortnight; the coarse ammunition
stockings were buttoned on the sides; a blue garment, of soldier's cloth,
was likewise tied round me, and I had a pair of slippers for my feet. The
shirt was of the army linen; and when I contemplated myself in this dress
of a malefactor, chained thus to the wall in such a dungeon, vainly
imploring mercy or justice, my conscience void of reproach, my heart of
guilt--when I reflected on my former splendour in Berlin and Moscow, and
compared it with this sad, this dreadful reverse of destiny, I was sunk
in grief, or roused to indignation, that might have hurried the greatest
hero or philosopher to madness or despair. I felt what can only be
imagined by him who has suffered like me, after having like me
flourished, if such can be found.
Pride, the justness of my cause, the unbounded confidence I had in my own
resolution, and the labours of an inventive head and iron body--these
only could have preserved my life. These bodily labours, these continued
inventions, and projected plans to obtain my freedom, preserved my
health. Who would suppose that a man fetter
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