road, shallow steps; yet, being unable at once
to make up his mind, he waited there at the stair's foot to see her come
down again.
She came at last, with so new a smile on her lips, that criticism was
lost in curiosity. Its subtle curves blended expectancy, fear and
tenderness, seen through a veil of restraint.
Then he saw that she was looking over his head, and turned to see his
brother standing in the doorway, with the sunlight behind him.
The half-hour she had promised him left Amaryllis little less unhappy
than Randal Bellamy.
Tea under the cedar was over, and Amaryllis could not eat even another
eclair, when he had said to her, "It's half-past five."
"Oh, yes," she replied, and folded her hands in her lap.
"So I've got till six o'clock," he went on.
"Yes," said Amaryllis, adding, a little uneasily, "and as much longer as
you like, Sir Randal."
He smiled at her mistake, and shook his head in resignation.
"You don't mean that--not in my sense," he said. "But look here, my
dear: I do really think it wouldn't be a bad thing for you to marry me.
You have no idea how good I should be to you. I have money and position.
You like me, and you will like me better. And for me--well, it hardly
seems fair to tell you what it would mean to me."
"Why not fair?" asked the girl, pained by his eagerness, and wishing it
all over.
"I've always thought that appealing _ad misericordiam_ was taking a mean
advantage. If I do it now, don't listen to me. But, if I'm worth it to
you, Amaryllis, take me, and you shan't regret it."
"You are worth anything--everything!" she cried, much distressed. "Worth
ever so much more, dear Sir Randal, than I could give. But I'd give you
all that I am--indeed I would--if it wasn't for--for----"
"Yes?" he asked. "Go on. Wasn't for what?"
"If it wasn't for something that says 'don't!' Oh, please understand. I
like you awfully, but it says it, and says it--I don't know why."
For a moment neither spoke.
"You _do_ understand, don't you?" she asked at last.
"I believe you, my dear," he answered; then added gently: "There's a
happier man somewhere, I think."
Amaryllis opened her eyes wide, almost, it seemed, in fear.
"Oh, no, no!" she cried. "Truthfully, I don't know any more than I've
told you."
When he was gone, she sat for a long time, wishing she could feel alone.
* * * * *
Several times between lunch and dinner that day had Amaryl
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