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, read me, with much feeling, these lines, written in Eric's boyish hand, and signed with his name. ALONE, YET NOT ALONE. Alone, alone! ah, weary soul, In all the world alone I stand, With none to wed their hearts to mine, Or link in mine a loving hand. Ah! I tell me not that I have those Who owe the ties of blood and name, Or pitying friends who love me well, And dear returns of friendship claim. I have, I have! but none can heal, And none shall see my inward woe, And the deep thoughts within me veiled No other heart but mine shall know. And yet amid my sins and shames The shield of God is o'er me thrown And, 'neath its awful shade I feel Alone,--yet, ah, not all alone! Not all alone! and though my life Be dragged along the stained earth, O God! I feel thee near me still, And thank thee for my birth! E.W. Montagu gave me the paper, and I cherish it as my dearest memorial of my erring but noble schoolboy friend. Knowing how strong an interest Mr. Rose always took in Eric, I gave him a copy of these verses when last I visited him at his pleasant vicarage of Seaford, to which he was presented a year or two ago by Dr. Rowlands, now Bishop of Roslyn, who has also appointed him examining chaplain. I sat and watched Mr. Rose while he read them. A mournful interest was depicted on his face, his hand trembled a little, and I fancied that he bent his grey hair over the paper to hide a tear. We always knew at school that Eric was one of his greatest favorites, as indeed he and Vernon were with all of us; and when the unhappy boy had run away without even having the opportunity for bidding any one farewell, Mr. Rose displayed such real grief, that for weeks he was like a man who went mourning for a son. After those summer holidays, when we returned to school, Montagu and Wildney brought back with them the intelligence of Eric's return to Fairholm, and of his death. The news plunged many of us in sorrow, and when, on the first Sunday in chapel, Mr. Rose alluded to this sad tale, there were few dry eyes among those who listened to him. I shall never forget that Sunday afternoon. A deep hush brooded over us, and before the sermon was over, many a face was hidden to conceal the emotion which could not be suppressed. "I speak," said Mr. Rose, "to a congregation of mourners, for one who
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