some way if I told you the truth about what you asked just now. To
understand that truth you ought to know about what went before--I mean
about my marriage. After all, a good many people could tell you as well
as I can that it was not... a very successful union. I was only twenty.
I admired his force and courage and certainty; he was the only strong
man I had ever known. But it did not take me long to find out that he
cared for his business more than for me, and I think I found out even
sooner that I had been deceiving myself and blinding myself, promising
myself impossible things and wilfully misunderstanding my own feelings,
because I was dazzled by the idea of having more money to spend than an
English girl ever dreams of. I have been despising myself for that
for five years. My husband's feeling for me... well, I cannot speak of
that... what I want to say is that along with it there had always been
a belief of his that I was the sort of woman to take a great place in
society, and that I should throw myself into it with enjoyment, and
become a sort of personage and do him great credit--that was his idea;
and the idea remained with him after other delusions had gone. I was a
part of his ambition. That was his really bitter disappointment, that
I failed him as a social success. I think he was too shrewd not to have
known in his heart that such a man as he was, twenty years older than I,
with great business responsibilities that filled every hour of his life,
and caring for nothing else--he must have felt that there was a risk
of great unhappiness in marrying the sort of girl I was, brought up to
music and books and unpractical ideas, always enjoying myself in my own
way. But he had really reckoned on me as a wife who would do the honours
of his position in the world; and I found I couldn't.'

Mrs Manderson had talked herself into a more emotional mood than she had
yet shown to Trent. Her words flowed freely, and her voice had begun to
ring and give play to a natural expressiveness that must hitherto have
been dulled, he thought, by the shock and self-restraint of the past few
days. Now she turned swiftly from the window and faced him as she went
on, her beautiful face flushed and animated, her eyes gleaming, her
hands moving in slight emphatic gestures, as she surrendered herself to
the impulse of giving speech to things long pent up.

'The people,' she said. 'Oh, those people! Can you imagine what it must
be for any o